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    Cecelia posted an update 3 days, 2 hours ago

    Overwhelmed. Feeling like I’m too much.

    • What’s on your mind @invincible, please don’t feel overwhelmed, remember to be calm and find ways to ease your mind and put yourself in a relaxed and positive mindset sweetheart, take deep breathes and focus on making each day as brilliant as you can sweetie, do activities that make you smile and give you a sense of optimism, purpose and hope,…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 3 days, 5 hours ago

    IDK I mean is it weird that he has his previous long term EXES in his phone saved as contacts open for them to text him and call, but he doesn’t want me keeping my male friends in my phone that I hardly even communicate with? Just doesn’t seem fair.. not about infidelity just respect and fairness… but whatever.

    • That’s not right at all @invincible, it sounds like he is trying to control you sweetie, who you can talk too, communicate with and who you can see, while being totally hypocritical, keeping previous exes as contacts for himself but restricting your right to contact male friends, you deserve a relationship that is truly open and honest beautiful…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 week, 2 days ago

    I joined Blah when I was 15. On Sunday I turned 25. Wild.

    • Hope you had a wonderful birthday @invincible, remember to think of how far you have come beautiful angel Cecelia and know that you will make all your dreams, goals and aspirations come true Cecelia, I’m sure that in all the time you have been on BT that this community has helped to make you feel happier, remember so many people care about you…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 month ago

    Up and down. With the draining, exhausted anxiety comes some exciting anxiety (good) and hope.

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 month, 1 week ago

    Panic attacks every night this week. Now utter anxiety. Car trouble and feeling emotionally neglected.

    • Please try to find ways to put yourself at ease, relax and calm yourself mentally, emotionally and physically @invincible, don’t let anxiety break you down sweetie, take deep breathes, listen to the sounds of calmness and focus on putting yourself in a state of peace, happiness and positivity beautiful Cecelia, I hope you manage to get your car…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    Now that I have some creative and productive blocks opening up, and work is going OK rather than horridly — I am contemplating some aspects in my relationship. I could put my self down as everyone does as being ”overdramatic” or ”overthinking” — but I deserve to be heard and my concerns and questions legitimatized and taken seriously.

    • You will overcome all the blocks and everything will work out amazingly for you @invincible, remember to stay positive and know you will make fantastic things happen beautiful angel Cecelia, keep working as hard as you can in your job but know your happiness and whether you are comfortable in the job should always come first sweetie, I would talk…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    My toxic boss got fired! So happy and relieved beyond belief! There is still toxicity deep within the company, so I will still be looking to leave – but I can do so without feeling like I’m gonna be sick everyday before & after work.

    • That’s good to hear, you should be able to go to work feeling positive and ready to do your job to the best of your ability @invincible, I would find a job in a company where the culture is caring and where you feel truly happy and comfortable beautiful Cecelia, don’t let your former toxic boss sour you on finding a great job sweetie, I’m sure…[Read more]

    • thanks so much Oli ♥ SO much love to you!!

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    overwhelmed and not happy right now. :/

    • I don’t want to see you feeling overwhelmed and unhappy @invincible, you are such a special, lovely and beautiful angel who deserves true happiness, positivity and brightness in your life sweetie, what’s on your mind Cecelia?, don’t let the sad and difficult times get you down sweetheart, focus on all the things in life that make you smile and…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 month, 3 weeks ago

    HOW can someone expect resepct when they never give it to me. I’ve been set up to fail so of course I’m gonna do all I can to get a taste of individuality and respectable freedom. Jesus. It’s overwhelming though and I panic and just get overwhelmingly depressed and just sleep. Hopefully this is the hard part before the success comes in.

    • They should respect, support and always be there to help you @invincible, anyone who disrespects you or stands in the way of your happiness, goals and dreams doesn’t deserve someone as amazing as you in their lives beautiful Cecelia, remember to be independent, be your own person sweetie, focus on your bright future that lies ahead and don’t let…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 month, 3 weeks ago

    Oh great now I am mega in the red for the week and it’s only monday heh.

    • Hope you are able to manage and make it through the week @invincible, don’t be afraid to reach out for support, help and assistance beautiful Cecelia, is there anyone or any organisations you can reach out to in your area sweetie?, try to stay positive, hold your head up high and keep going forward with optimism Cecelia, I wish I could help you…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 month, 3 weeks ago

    I feel utterly distressed and overwhelmed… I cannot take it anymore where I am treated so insignificantly and like an incapable child by my parent. And I am so over their lack of communication. It makes me sick & feel like shit. Why am I not allowed to be a human? Their twisted view of keeping me dependent, dumb & child-like in their systematic…[Read more]

    • You deserve so much better @invincible, your parents should treat you with love and always support you in what you want to do in life, I would talk to them openly and honestly sweetie, let them know how you feel, because you do deserve independence and to live a fulfilling life that is happy and where you can make your own choices and decisions…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 month, 4 weeks ago

    Panic attack and annoyance

    • Focus on putting your mind at ease, relax and find positive ways to calm yourself @invincible, don’t let anxiety break you down sweetie, I want to see you feeling wonderful physically, mentally and emotionally beautiful angel Cecelia, take deep breathes, meditate, listen to calm sounds or music, everything will be OK sweetie, hold your head up…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 2 months ago

    How can work go from being great to being an absolute hell… it’s getting worse and worse each day, which is hard to believe but I am living it! LOOKINg for a job but feeling pressure from both my parent at home and my boyfriend at his place is getting to me..

    • Oli replied 2 months ago

      I know how you feel, my job is stressful as I work for the emergency services in the UK but I try to cope with it as best I can @invincible, you deserve to be in a job that makes you feel positive and gives you a sense of fulfilment, remember that your happiness should always come first sweetie, I would try to find a job or career for yourself…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 2 months, 2 weeks ago

    I’m not uncomfortable, but I feel so uncomfortable

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5pG2VPXPITg

    • Please don’t feel uncomfortable @invincible, remember to stay positive, smile brightly and always be kind to yourself beautiful angel Cecelia, you deserve to feel comfortable, upbeat and wonderful sweetie, you will make it through the difficult moments and come out stronger as you are a brave survivor sweetheart, keep going forward with…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 4 months ago

    A day for staying busy and blasting music … woke up exhausted and snapped at by my toxic boss as well as my sick bf over the phone so… :-) thank god i have reasons to stay busy otherwise i’d break down just about now.

    • add my period on top of it… starting lol.

    • Oli replied 4 months ago

      Please take care of yourself @invincible, remember to stay positive and surround yourself with happiness, hope and empathy beautiful angel Cecelia, your boss really should treat you with respect and not be toxic, as I’m sure you are a great employee who works hard, I would talk to your boyfriend about any issues in the relationship, always keep…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 4 months, 1 week ago

    Beyond stressed. I feel both my parent and partner tugging at me and I am losing myself in the process.. it’s very triggering because it’s reminiscent of my childhood. Emotionally gaslit by my parent and her having control over everything and i just feel paralyzed from the trauma and loss of control. All the pressure and stress from my intense…[Read more]

    • Your parents and your partner should treat you with love and always be there to support you @invincible, you are such a lovely, wonderful and amazing angel who deserves happiness in your life sweetheart, don’t let them gaslight or bully you Cecelia, you have been through so much sweetie and come out as a brave, strong survivor Cecelia, please…[Read more]

    • That last line just hit right in the spot… You are not a priority to yourself. It did hit a soft spot to me too, because I’m the same way. It’s very difficult to change that if it’s something you’ve been doing for a long time. Even so, you have to treat yourself with the same kindness and love that you would treat a loved one. This won’t…[Read more]

    • I view life as a mathematical consequence game, and sometimes one problem leads to another, and you may feel that everything wrong had to happen simultaneously. My solution to this was practising discipline about how I react to situations and turn those hardships into lessons to be learned or challenges to be won.

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    Cecelia posted an update 4 months, 2 weeks ago

    Not me having a spicy dream w/ my boyfriend whom i am super passionate about in every single way, and then in the dream suddenly my ex (big regret disgust) and BOSS (abusive) show up… totally ruined my mood this morning LOL. having anxious dreams lately. :(

    • You truly deserve to have dreams about and spend time with people who bring you happiness, love and support @invincible, don’t let anxiety and horrible people get you down beautiful Cecelia, remember to focus on making your relationship with your boyfriend stronger and letting each day guide you with positivity, hope and brightness sweetie, smile…[Read more]

    • *facpalm* Absolutely ruined the dream xD. The worst part it’s that you wake up with negative feelings that are hard to shake off during the day. Try to do relaxing routines before bed time, so the chances to have bad dreams decrease.

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    Cecelia posted an update 4 months, 2 weeks ago

    My parent is gatekeeping the $$$ and info from my accident and new car opportunities which is just pushing me even more to get out and be independent, I just need to get my spending and saving in order…

    • and i can’t start to do credit because apparently you hagve to have a histor yof it but I never have??? frustrating. real world sucks. but i love it because i can be INDEPENDENT. all i crave.

    • Do take care of yourself @invincible, it’s great to see you striving to be independent wonderful Cecelia, hope you recover from your accident, do look after your money and vehicle sweetie, remember to budget wisely, spend only what you need and budget wisely, I’m sure you will lead a truly positive, fulfilling and meaningful life Cecelia, always…[Read more]

    • thank you so much Oli, I need to just remember to and apply budgeting to my life, especially since I have to look after myself first, my cat, and now my life with my new love who i think is the one. it’s big responsibilites but i want it more than anything.

    • It’s so frustrating that the ones who are supposed to take care of you and give you the resources to be an independent adult, do not let you grow and live your life. You are very determined and hard working Cecelia. I know you’ll fulfill your goal to live with your significant other and your cat in a home you’ll call your own. As you said, all…[Read more]

    • Look up secure credit cards, you can start an account with a deposit and build your credit that way even with zero history. hope that helps!

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    Cecelia posted an update 4 months, 3 weeks ago

    Yes, it’s moving fast. But it’s my life. My choices and my relationship. Moving this fast could result in a marriage of 20 years. OR it could end in a few months. Either way, it’s my life. And I am not afraid of living. If an outsider is, well, focus on yourself boo.

    • Don’t let anyone dictate to you on how to live your life @invincible, remember to be positive, optimistic and bright beautiful angel Cecelia, focus on making your relationship with your boyfriend stronger as each day passes sweetie, do not let anyone or anything stand in the way of your happiness Cecelia, everything will go amazingly for you…[Read more]

    • Moving fast does not equal moving towards the wrong direction @invincible. Just to give a little example, my partner asked me to live with him when we were just one month into our relationship as a couple (we were friends from a year ago). We finally moved in together when we were 10 months into the relationship. We are currently into our 2 year…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 5 months ago

    with a new guy, it’s on the road to getting serious but something keeps botheirng me and it concerns his past and the women he has been with, in a serious level physically, emotionally, socially & sexually. i can’t shake it and need someone to talk to. might consider speaking with my old therapist on a day off. i really care about him and he is…[Read more]

    • Oli replied 5 months ago

      I would talk to your therapist about your concerns @invincible, but do also talk to your boyfriend about how you see things in the relationship and where you want things to go from here sweetie, do keep the lines of communication open between yourself and your boyfriend Cecelia, be as open and honest with each other as you can, remember we all…[Read more]

    • You’re already on the right path Cecelia. If there is something that does not let you enjoy your relationship, or it prevents it from growing and evolving, you should bring it to the table and talk about your concerns with your therapist or with someone you can really trust. If you feel comfortable enough, you could address this topic to your…[Read more]

    • thank you @m1s1m3 and @oliver, your sweet and helpful words mean so much to me, you don’t even know. I appreciate you both so much and am hoping you guys are well, I am here for you as you are here for me, and I couldn’t be more grateful for that. Trying to set up a therapy appt now, and am going to talk to my boyfriend about my concerns as well…[Read more]

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