I ended up staying home, and I’ve tried to take the opportunity to study and I’ve only been able to do an hour and a half today between taking a shower, eating, and staring at my clock. I’m so mentally exhausted. I’m glad I didn’t end up going to clinical, because chances are I would have been spacing out too much and would have made an error or some sort. I also just got a 80% on a group assignment, and now I feel discouraged considering how heavy I had a hand in that assignment. That, and I was planning to wing the test for the class that that assignment was in, but now that my once high mark has dropped to the low nineties I’m scared since I typically don’t do well when I wing tests (and I still have a 30% exam to write for it) But with the amount of tests I have coming up (4 that are due in the next two weeks) I felt more comfortable before receiving the 80% mark to wing it. Now I’m not so sure.
It also doesn’t help how I’ve had suicidal thoughts all day. Kind of discouraging.