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    OrderoftheHalfBlood posted an update 7 years, 2 months ago

    I’m going out tonight to see friends I haven’t seen since Christmas, but I feel kind of guilty for going out when I have so much to do. I’m just going to go out later and go home earlier so that I can still see my friends, but not feel as bad for losing time that could have been dedicated to school work.

    Mood : Guilty
    • Do go out and take some time to enjoy yourself @orderofthehalfblood, I’m sure you will be able to find some space in the day for your schoolwork, balance everything out and I’m sure you will be OK, hopefully you will manage to get all the important things completed, you can do it, I’m always here if you need to chat :) (hugs)

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    OrderoftheHalfBlood posted a new activity comment 7 years, 2 months ago

    In reply to: OrderoftheHalfBlood posted an update Apparently I’m a really intense person because of how I internalize everything. Hmm. View

    I’ve been a bit more hesitant with how I let my thoughts and feelings out properly, and I haven’t had a whole lot of time to do so due to being busy all the time. I’m still finding ways to not be so internal, and I thought I was doing alright, but apparently I still have a long way to go. Ha… Thanks for commenting! :)

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    OrderoftheHalfBlood posted a new activity comment 7 years, 2 months ago

    In reply to: lovers00 posted an update I have never been this happy for a very long time into I met this amazing , caring , sweet guy . View

    That’s awesome! I hope all goes well. :)

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    OrderoftheHalfBlood posted an update 7 years, 2 months ago

    Apparently I’m a really intense person because of how I internalize everything. Hmm.

    Mood : Not Specified
    • Don’t bottle things up @orderofthehalfblood, do find ways to get your thoughts and feelings out properly, hopefully the more you release everything, you will become happier and more positive, remember to keep being the awesome and special person that you are, you can do it, I’m always here if you need to chat or vent, message me anytime, my…[Read more]

    • I’ve been a bit more hesitant with how I let my thoughts and feelings out properly, and I haven’t had a whole lot of time to do so due to being busy all the time. I’m still finding ways to not be so internal, and I thought I was doing alright, but apparently I still have a long way to go. Ha… Thanks for commenting! :)

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    OrderoftheHalfBlood posted an update 7 years, 2 months ago

    When this peer of mine stops talking to me like I’m a naive, eighteen year old who knows nothing I will feel so blessed. Nothing like being the only teenager in a group of adults and constantly being talked to in a patronizing manner when you already think you’re an idiot and not worthy enough to have gotten to where you are today. It’s kind of…[Read more]

    Mood : Frustrated
    • Don’t let them talk down to you @orderofthehalfblood, you deserve to be treated with respect and like an adult, surround yourself with people who will give you equality and who will make sure you are included as part of the group, hope things work out, I’m always here if you need to chat or vent :) (hugs)

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    OrderoftheHalfBlood posted a new activity comment 7 years, 2 months ago

    In reply to: Em posted an update So, the potential side-effects of my new pills apparently may include sleep disorders, anxiety, depression, .. I guess I wouldn’t know if I were suffering from any of those side-effects, but […] View

    What kind of medication is it, if you don’t mind me asking? (ex. antidepressants, antipsychotics)

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    OrderoftheHalfBlood posted a new activity comment 7 years, 2 months ago

    In reply to: OrderoftheHalfBlood posted an update I’m putting so much effort into becoming a nurse when I honestly don’t want to become one. The more I get into nursing, the more I start to realize how much of a horrible, […] View

    I’m not too sure about anything right now, @layla95. I feel really lost. I just want to find something that gives me hope, that encourages me to keep going, but I honestly don’t have anything. The only reason I’m still in nursing is because I don’t know what else to do (as well I’ve already invested so much money into it, and I’ll have no…[Read more]

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    OrderoftheHalfBlood posted a new activity comment 7 years, 2 months ago

    In reply to: OrderoftheHalfBlood posted an update I’m putting so much effort into becoming a nurse when I honestly don’t want to become one. The more I get into nursing, the more I start to realize how much of a horrible, […] View

    I really don’t have anything that gives me hope and purpose, @oliver. I wish I did, but I don’t. Not having that makes it hard, but I’ll try to do my best to keep on going.

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    OrderoftheHalfBlood posted an update 7 years, 2 months ago

    I’m putting so much effort into becoming a nurse when I honestly don’t want to become one. The more I get into nursing, the more I start to realize how much of a horrible, incompetent person I am and I just need to get out before something horrible happens.

    Mood : Afraid
    • I’m sure you will do great things in life @orderofthehalfblood, put your mind, body and soul into something that gives you hope and purpose, you will make all your goals and dreams happen, remember to believe in yourself and in your abilities to get things done, hold your head up high and don’t give up, you will make it, I’m always here if you…[Read more]

    • Do what you think is best but really make sure that’s what you want to do. It’s easy to underestimate ourselves with careers in particular. Please give an update soon! :)

    • I really don’t have anything that gives me hope and purpose, @oliver. I wish I did, but I don’t. Not having that makes it hard, but I’ll try to do my best to keep on going.

    • I’m not too sure about anything right now, @layla95. I feel really lost. I just want to find something that gives me hope, that encourages me to keep going, but I honestly don’t have anything. The only reason I’m still in nursing is because I don’t know what else to do (as well I’ve already invested so much money into it, and I’ll have no…[Read more]

    • @orderofthehalfblood it’s easy to feel that way trust me, that’s why I’m not in college now because I was taking up nursing but felt like my personal mental problems was getting in the way and made me seem kind of hypocritical and not having a family or friends to support or encourage me made things worse. So I know where you coming from. If…[Read more]

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    OrderoftheHalfBlood posted a new activity comment 7 years, 2 months ago

    In reply to: OrderoftheHalfBlood posted an update For real though, no one is calling me shy anymore, but instead socially awkward. I can’t please these people, can I? I don’t have a lot of social experience because I was […] View

    *Not saying that people who were bullied all throughout their childhood are socially awkward, just in my case it prevented me from having a lot of social interactions in fear of being rejected and/or ridiculed.

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    OrderoftheHalfBlood posted an update 7 years, 2 months ago

    For real though, no one is calling me shy anymore, but instead socially awkward. I can’t please these people, can I? I don’t have a lot of social experience because I was bullied all of my childhood, so my apologizes if I’m not that charismatic.

    Mood : Annoyed
    • *Not saying that people who were bullied all throughout their childhood are socially awkward, just in my case it prevented me from having a lot of social interactions in fear of being rejected and/or ridiculed.

    • that suckss i get called this too and i dont believe I am. You are probably NOT socially awkward.

    • I’m pretty shy and quiet too @orderofthehalfblood, but remember you are a wonderful person who deserves happiness, you will meet kind people who will love you for who you are, also I was bullied too, so I know how much it hurts, please don’t feel upset sweetie, find ways to build up your confidence and keep going forward, I want the best for…[Read more]

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    OrderoftheHalfBlood posted a new activity comment 7 years, 2 months ago

    In reply to: OrderoftheHalfBlood posted an update Mother called me socially awkward and the nurse practitioner and doctor wants to have me tested for bipolar disorder. What a day. View

    I think it will be too. I highly doubt that I have bipolar disorder, haha. The only reason my doctor suggested it was because I told her that I go from having days where I am happy/neutral to days where I am sad/depressed and this tends to cycle. I’m a college student, though, and this is what most of us go through lol. xD Thanks for commenting! :)

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    OrderoftheHalfBlood posted a new activity comment 7 years, 2 months ago

    In reply to: OrderoftheHalfBlood posted an update Mother called me socially awkward and the nurse practitioner and doctor wants to have me tested for bipolar disorder. What a day. View

    low risk though*

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    OrderoftheHalfBlood posted an update 7 years, 2 months ago

    Mother called me socially awkward and the nurse practitioner and doctor wants to have me tested for bipolar disorder. What a day.

    Mood : Drained
    • low risk though*

    • Awh iM sorry. Im sure everything will be fine, I am here if you need to talk!

    • I think it will be too. I highly doubt that I have bipolar disorder, haha. The only reason my doctor suggested it was because I told her that I go from having days where I am happy/neutral to days where I am sad/depressed and this tends to cycle. I’m a college student, though, and this is what most of us go through lol. xD Thanks for commenting! :)

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    OrderoftheHalfBlood posted a new activity comment 7 years, 2 months ago

    In reply to: OrderoftheHalfBlood posted an update So much work to do, but not enough motivation to do it. I’m tired of working 24/7 all the time, but this is the life I’ve chosen. View

    I hope I do find that something sooner or later that bring me passion and purpose because it sure is tiring putting your all into something you don’t even really enjoy. Your kind words are appreciated as always, @Oliver :)

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    OrderoftheHalfBlood posted an update 7 years, 2 months ago

    So much work to do, but not enough motivation to do it. I’m tired of working 24/7 all the time, but this is the life I’ve chosen.

    Mood : Annoyed
    • Try to work as hard as you can but do remember to take regular breaks so you can recharge yourself when you need too @orderofthehalfblood, also do what makes you feel truly happy in life, I’m sure you will find something that gives you passion and purpose, everything will go well for you, stay positive and keep going, you can do it, I’m always…[Read more]

    • I hope I do find that something sooner or later that bring me passion and purpose because it sure is tiring putting your all into something you don’t even really enjoy. Your kind words are appreciated as always, @Oliver :)

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    OrderoftheHalfBlood posted a new activity comment 7 years, 2 months ago

    In reply to: OrderoftheHalfBlood posted an update I wish I could stop feeling so inferior all the time to my peers. I sometimes want to cry because of how competent they are. I’m trying to do the best I am, but my best is […] View

    I would remove myself from it, but that would mean a lot of money I’d have to pay up right away with no money to pay it. Being smart matters a lot to me because it’s really all I have going for me. I’m not really good at much else. Well, I guess complaining, but that isn’t really anything to be proud of.

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