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    Oli posted an update 2 years, 9 months ago

    Honestly, I’m a mess, I’m always struggling with depression and loneliness, I hate this, I can’t sort myself out at all, no one cares, I’m just getting by and surviving, but what’s the point?, I’m a burden to everything and everyone, I want to smile and be happy, but how?, where do I go, what do I do?, I’m sinking deeper into this dark hole, I’m sorry :(

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    • @oliver
      That isn’t true, Oli. We all care about you, and you’re not a burden on anyone at all. And there’s no need for you to be sorry; you can’t control how you feel. Depression is a tough thing to defeat.
      We’re all here for you, always. You do so much for us, and we want to do anything we can to help you too.

    • Ask yourself what is the structure of this pain? What is the cause? What is the root? Self knowledge is the way to freedom and right relationship. May peace be upon you I’m open to dialogue if you ever need to talk to someone.

    • I wish I could give you some peace of mind because I know thats not true, no really, it isn’t :) people love you and I know you probaly don’t feel that way and I know everything sucks and there is this huge sinking hole and your just in the middle of it wondering how your ever going to get out but you have to trust me and everyone, that things will get better, in some form. Because even though depression is a mother you grow stronger when you turn the pages of your struggles. I know you also don’t feel this way but you gotta trust me you are strong. Your stronger than you feel and smarter than you look and wiser than you know and thats whats going to get you through this. Someday your going to beat this Oli whether getting professional help or finding spirituality or even changing the world the way I know you can. Oli you are a great person! You’ve always been here for me and I don’t think I’ve met a person whose cared more on this site or dam even life. I don’t know what you like or what can help but for me I like to do creative things, or hang out with my dog or take hour long walks or writing…find what works for you and just know you aren’t alone, not even close were always here and were not going to let you drown.

    • @oliver I do not think there is a single person in the world, and definitely not on this site, who would possibly think you are a burden. Everyone goes through ups and downs but you are there and pick everyone else up and make them feel so good about themselves. Any time I see a status you have commented on I know that the person is going to be smiling all day because that is what you did to me. It can be hard to stay happy yourself but I find that the easiest way to stay happy is to get out and do something physical and that takes your mind off your worrying, if you preoccupy yourself with work or exercise or something like that then there is no time for those ideal thoughts which bring you down; also you can see it paying off for you. But your work you do for everyone who has been struggling with depression is such an inspiration and so amazing, you are someone so selfless that I cannot help but envy how much good you do. Please keep up the good work and know that you have helped a countless number of people and have most probably saved a life or two by letting people know that someone cares for them; just like how we all care for you.

    • Hi Oliver. You are aways very kind and considerate to others here on blah therapy. I think you are opposite of a burden (honestly I never like to think of others as a burden; we all belong here on earth whether others see it or not)! I always smile when I see your comments. You are like a breath of fresh air. Hang in there buddy.

    • @Oliver …i know exactly how that feels.

      They say those who smile the brightest.. are the ones who deep down truly hurt the most.

      If you want to talk about it, you know where to find me. Drop me a line and we’ll talk it out.

      Xoxo
      -Alayna

    • hello oli… long time no see.
      you know they say where we dont see enough progress in life its time for decisions. ( seriously i dont know who said it! i made it up! lol)
      these days i think of god so many times… reallly what are your experties man? ( i know this is not the place for asking this but i know you wont mind! delete this if you want! )