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    Trevor posted an update 5 years, 6 months ago

    ”You just need to do something, even if that means killing yourself. If your not going to do anything productive, then just kill yourself and get it over with.” – Family Member (a month ago)

    Mood : Crushed
    • Sorry I let everyone down last month. As soon as we got the Discord server up and going…quickly building up a base of ”regulars” in the chat room and having some great conversations. Never mind everyone being able to finally talk LIVE, as in REAL TIME….and aside from typing, my personal favorite, the VOICE CHAT channels!

      Theeeeen I just fade away, drift off into the mist and vanish. I am going to spend the entire day today, trying to make up for that. Make up for lost time, letting people down…letting myself down.

      NONE of you owe me a thing and that’s why I appreciate all of your kindness and messages filled with warmth and concern. Just basic acknowledgement that I exist, have ideas….and that some of them might actually be worthwhile. This acceptance of me is invaluable in pulling me out of my Kafkaesque nightmare world, full of terrifying levels of pure, unadulterated alienation and ”othering” of myself.

      ….Thanks, I love all of you. :)

    • I’m sorry that someone said that to you @nightwake, your family should give you encouragement, love and care Trevor, I’m sure you will do amazing things and that you will be so successful, make all your goals become a reality, you are incredible Trevor, always remember that, I’m always here if you need to chat or vent, feel free to message me anytime, my inbox is always open, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • Don’t you worry yourself about the opinions of people who do not value your life. You exist, and therefore you matter. Your life matters.

      Do not permit your mind to fall into the trap of trying to derive a meaningful life chasing the acceptance of abusive people who do not deserve you. You deserve happiness for your own sake, just as much as any other person.

      If you would like to discuss this further and in private, contact Humanist Hope on Facebook, Twitter, or here at BlahTherapy under the username @blackholehead.