Hi, I’m Abbie and unfortunately I’ve been breathing for the past 16 years. I like to think that one day everything is going to be okay and life will finally start being good to me. I live on hope and songs that I write a scenario for in hope that one day, someone will sing them like that to me. Fairy tales are the only things that have always made me happy, ever since I was little. They might have given me too much hope on love and life in general but they’re worth the pain that is still about to come.
The smallest things in life amaze me and I’m very easy to confuse. I hate hurting people to the point where it makes me hate myself. I can simply not stand the thought of hurting someone the way I was hurt before. I find it hard to let things go, I need to learn to stop depending on people because in the end it causes nothing but pain. I came to the conclusion that you can choose who your family is. To me, family is not about being related. It’s about feeling close and comfortable, loving each other, being there no matter what, knowing that you will never leave.
I’m not a happy person, but I’m a positive person and it’s what keeps me going. I don’t like when people tell me to ‘stay strong’ or that ‘everything will get better’. I hate it when people give me those kind of speeches cause they honestly mean nothing to me. I am strong and smart enough to get through this on my own and I don’t need or want the help of anyone else. I know that one day, I’ll be living in a big city with a perfect person next to me in a cosy apartment and everything will be okay.
I hate when people ‘compliment’ my appearance. Those so called ‘compliments’ are nothing but opinions from other people who do not have to live in my body so therefore, their opinion on it is irrelevant. I don’t have a strong desire to be seen as “the pretty girl”, but I want to be seen as “the fascinating” and “unique” girl.
I don’t like growing up. I don’t want the time of princes on their white horses and princesses in perfect dresses to end, but at the same time I can’t wait to start my own life and make something out of it. I can’t wait to prove everyone wrong and show them what I’m worth.
Here’s a big virtual hug and kiss as a thank you for still reading this <3