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    mzmarie posted an update 3 months, 2 weeks ago

    Sitting here deep in my thoughts trying to figure what and why it went all wrong. Playing old memories in my mind and i find myself missing you. But what do i miss? Maybe its the misery, loneliness, the silent treatment. Or maybe its when he acted like i didnt exist sometimes, or him not even having the common curtesy to even let me know he was leaving and be gone all day. Or it could be that i miss his selfish ways when it was always about him and how he felt, never taking my feelings or me into consideration. It might just be that i miss him stealing from me running my new car on purpose oh amd his leying. Him always acting like he never did anything wrong. Him only touching me when he wanted sex and him only being sweet and nice whenever he wanted something from me. No i dont think this whAt i miss…. maybe its when i was in the hospital and i almost died and he was no where to be found. But he has the nerve to say he got my messages but turned his phone off.
    So why do i miss him why do i feel heart broken?? Am i the sick one here?

    Mood : Confused
    • You are not the sick one at all. When we find ourselves among difficult times and hard circumstances, and when our strength is almost gone, we cling onto what we have in our lifes. And that thing can be the one that saves and destroys us at the same time.
      So don’t think your feelings are wrong @mzconfused, all of them are valid. By what you said, your mind has very clear what happened, but your heart is still processing all the feelings, so give yourself all the time you need. Take care sweetie <3

    • It is odd how we can become so attached to that which is so destructive for and in us. The ability to see your relationship from the outside means you are almost there, almost at the point where you can act on the decision you have already made. Time to move on. Forgive yourself for letting the crap go on so long, and start anew, being wiser and stronger for your experience(s).

    • This guy had absolutely no right to treat you badly @mzconfused, you are such a beautiful person who deserves to be treated with love, dignity, care and respect, you will find true happiness with someone wonderful, do take time to process your feelings but try to move on as best you can, focus on the bright future that is ahead for you, believe in yourself and never give up, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)