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    ShyBookOwl posted an update 6 years, 12 months ago

    I now know the desire to slice my skin. I call it self-punishment. I also call it a coping method. You call it self harm. Technically i have done it for years, just not with a blade until this january. i hate myself for this. i also hate my fat body, my crazy and stupid mind.. i hate anxiety, i hate depression, i hate me

    Mood : Numb
    • Please don’t let sadness get you down @merlin742, I don’t want to see you feeling bad, don’t harm yourself, hold your head up high and try your best to focus on all the brightness that is happening, remember you are absolutely incredible inside and out, embrace and love yourself 100%, you are a fighter who will make it, believe in yourself and…[Read more]

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    ShyBookOwl posted an update 7 years, 12 months ago

    I live in fear. Fear of the past, present and future. I’m afraid of people finding out what I’ve done or said. I’m afraid of what others can do. I’m afraid of myself and what I can do and have done. I live in guilt and fear of being found out. I am not strong, I’ve tried giving up many times. I don’t know what to think or do. I keep making…[Read more]

    Mood : Nervous
    • It is much easier to see your mistakes than to see your successes. What matters is not what you have done poorly, but rather what you intended in achieving. Stay strong and please try not letting the bad bring you down further.

    • Please don’t let anything get you down @merlin742, you are such an amazing person who deserves all the happiness in the world, things will be OK and everything will work out, great things will happen to you and you will be so successful, be positive and smile, hold your head up high, you will have such a remarkable life, so many more brighter…[Read more]

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    ShyBookOwl posted a new activity comment 8 years, 3 months ago

    In reply to: ShyBookOwl posted an update ”Sometimes I don’t wanna be better. Sometimes I can’t be put back together. Sometimes I find it hard to believe, There’s someone who could be; Just as messed up as me..Sometimes I […] View

    I’ve heard Threes Day Grace, they intrigue me. Never heard of Shinedown, I’ll look them up.

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    ShyBookOwl and Profile picture of Hailey are now friends 8 years, 3 months ago

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    ShyBookOwl posted a new activity comment 8 years, 3 months ago

    In reply to: ShyBookOwl posted an update ”Sometimes I don’t wanna be better. Sometimes I can’t be put back together. Sometimes I find it hard to believe, There’s someone who could be; Just as messed up as me..Sometimes I […] View

    Thanks Hailey.. -hug- I just heard that song on pandora and loved those lyrics. I can relate to them. I really am starting to like Skillet more and more.

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    ShyBookOwl and Profile picture of mini_beethovenmini_beethoven are now friends 8 years, 3 months ago

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    ShyBookOwl posted a new activity comment 8 years, 3 months ago

    In reply to: ShyBookOwl posted an update ”Sometimes I don’t wanna be better. Sometimes I can’t be put back together. Sometimes I find it hard to believe, There’s someone who could be; Just as messed up as me..Sometimes I […] View

    -hug- thanks…

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    ShyBookOwl posted an update 8 years, 3 months ago

    ”Sometimes I don’t wanna be better.
    Sometimes I can’t be put back together.
    Sometimes I find it hard to believe,
    There’s someone who could be;
    Just as messed up as me..

    Sometimes I don’t try,
    To make you happy.
    Sometimes I don’t deny,
    That everything is wrong..” (Sometimes by Skillet)

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    ShyBookOwl posted an update 8 years, 3 months ago

    I am pretty sure I am depressed. I even found a book all about depression and I can tell I have it.. What do I do now? My parents kinda think I was depressed in the past, but it hasnt been this bad. I dont think they think i’m depressed currently, but I don’t want to worry them..

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    ShyBookOwl answered question “No bullshit please8 years, 4 months ago

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    ShyBookOwl replied to the forum topic I feel like I don't have a gender… in the group Group logoSexuality, Gender, and Mental Health 8 years, 4 months ago

    I was and still kind of am today like that. I never wanted boobs, I don’t like my wide hips. I’ve learned to accept them though. I always thought I was the wrong gender because I couldn’t relate to other girls, […]

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    ShyBookOwl answered question “When should things happen?8 years, 4 months ago

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    ShyBookOwl posted a new activity comment 8 years, 8 months ago

    In reply to: Missy posted an update ”If you know someone who’s depressed, please resolve never to ask them why. Depression isn’t a straightforward response to a bad situation, depession just is, like the weather. Try to […] View

    Very good quote! I like it!

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    ShyBookOwl posted an update 8 years, 8 months ago

    I felt depressed this morning. I tried not to cry in class. It didn’t help that I felt sick for most of the morning. Then, during study hall I was texting 741741 or LifeAct and a “counselor” named Sammi helped me for a while. What happened at lunch left me stunned though.. One of my youth leaders from Jr. High texted me and said: “Hey! This is…[Read more]

    • I think this is so awesome. When you feel you need help the most God always sends someone to help encourage you. Keep praying. I hope that you will gain more and more strength remember ”you can do all things through Christ who strengthens you.” -Phillipians 4:13

    • Aw, thanks for sharing this.

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    ShyBookOwl posted an update 8 years, 8 months ago

    Finally joined this website, I’ve used it in the past and its pretty good. Its a good community. :)

    Mood : Thankful
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    ShyBookOwl joined the group Group logoI don’t know who I am anymore. 8 years, 8 months ago

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