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    Vena posted an update 4 months, 1 week ago

    I’ve been struggling with something for a while now. And I’m not sure what to call it. Is it an eating disorder? Or something else. Because everything I’ve looked up about eating disorders make it seem like you have to be starving yourself or actively controlling what you eat, or throwing up, because you want to loose weight and be skinny. But that’s not what I feel. I’m more like, casually not eating a lot. Like, not actively throwing away food to be skinny, but just being too tired to make myself food, and being too sad to eat so I go to bed hungry, and I don’t care about weight. So I feel like I’m more not eating a lot because I’m self harming and self destructing. Does that count as an eating disorder though?

    • Please eat and don’t starve yourself @masquerader000, you are a good person who deserves to feel healthy, happy and positive, do take care of yourself positively, emotionally and mentally, do eat decent portions of food and always be kind to yourself, look in the mirror and smile at the amazing person you see staring back at you, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • The issues you have about eating and food might be realated to some other cause, and not food itself. Because of your description, it appears that something affects your mood in a negative way, and that makes you not want to eat and not enjoying food. Finding the triggering cause would be a good start. It would be advisable to get a medical check and a blood test, so you can be sure your health it’s on point. And don’t be afraid to tell about how you’ve been feeling to a friend and to ask for professional help, Vena. The fact that you are aware that something it’s making you feel bad and doesn’t let you function properly it’s very brave and a very good start. I know you’ll find a solution, don’t give up.

    • @masquerader000 is this only about food? If it applies to other tasks, like cleaning and other self mainteinance chores, you can consider if it’s depression

    • I’m pretty bad at taking care of myself, but occasionally I do get motivated to clean the house. And yeah, I do have depression. I’ve never gotten a proper diagnosis, but I’ve been aware of the symptoms for years now, so there’s no doubt in my mind. And so that’s the thing. I don’t know if my eating avoidance and lack of appetite is only because my depression is making me not enjoy food, and that I’m starving myself because I’m self harming, or if all of this is considered an eating disorder. Because I don’t want to claim to have something that I don’t. Like, does eating disorder specifically mean that I have to have a desire to be skinny and loose weight? Or is it a blanket term for a disorder with someone’s eating pattern, like self starvation? Pretty much, I just want to know what to label my problems.