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    Marta posted an update 4 months, 2 weeks ago

    In my lifetime, I’ve never fit in anywhere. I have a few people I really love and care about, and I know they do feel the same about me. Despite this, my soul feels extremely lonely. I’ve never had the luck to find someone who really understands the world I live in, the demons that torment me, the things that make me feel alive, the passions my heart has.
    The thing is this feeling is getting stronger every day. Yesterday I was with a group of 6 friends and I couldn’t help it but constantly thinking ”What am I doing here? It would be exactly the same if I wasn’t even here. I am the one who doesn’t make a difference because… I’m too different from the rest of them”
    I know this is part of life, getting apart from some of the people you love. Not because there’s hate or bad feelings involved, just because you grow and take differents paths in life. Anyway, I wish I had someone who shared the same passions and fears that I have.

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    • I know how you feel @m1s1m3, I feel like I’ve never fit in anywhere too Marta, I was bullied a lot in high school, which has caused me to become a shy, reclusive hermit and introvert in my adult years, I’m so shy so I find it hard to bond with people and build meaningful relationships, but please don’t feel lonely Marta, you are such a kind, beautiful and loving soul who deserves good people around her, I want you to see the positivity and hope that your life can have, don’t let the dark moments and sadness get you down sweetie, the BT community cares about you and so do I, you will find a place where you fit Marta because you are a survivor, keep going forward with confidence and know so many bright moments are ahead for you, you can do it Marta, believe in yourself and never give up, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) <3 (hugs)

    • I can relate so much! It can be such a torturous feeling, but you seem like you are beyond incredible & different in a unique way and I truly think you will find peopple who will understand you and it will be incredible

    • Thank you so much Cecelia and Oli <3. You're always so supportive and uplifting, your words mean so much to me! The both of you @oliver and @invincible are so amaizing and selfless. Keep being such kind and wonderful persons!!