Don’t give up on the idea, having a family is great but lots of tribulation too. I’ve got two little girls that I love with all my heart, it has helped me grow as a person. I hope your darkness fades and you you hang on to the moments of happiness that life gives every once in awhile!

I already gave up on it. There’s so much required to get a family of my own and I’m not capable of those things. You’re lucky to have two girls, cherish them forever.

Until they grow up and hate my guts:)
I just read your vent, proud of you for your effort to be there for family before its too late. Hang in there please.

Anxiety is not the reason.

That’s not it either. There’s no point in guessing for the reason.