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    Cecelia posted an update 3 weeks, 3 days ago

    constant state of anger and anxiety beause the government denied my claim to money from covid

    • Please try to relax and not worry @invincible, the government really should accept your claim and pay you money that you desperately need to support yourself sweetie, I would try to keep reaching out to the authorities and hopefully they will pay out the money you need beautiful angel Cecelia, everything will be OK Cecelia, don’t be afraid to…[Read more]

    • thanks Oli, I have appealed the deny, but if they end up denying that too, I’ll be OK. After my classes in a few weeks, I’ll be working numerous jobs and gigs to get some money. Luckily my family member has loaned me some money for basic needs. ♥

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    Cecelia posted an update 4 weeks ago

    Anyone know where I can find an online or zoom support group that is free for shopping / spending addictions or compulsive buying? I could really use something like that but google is not showing me any resources which makes me think no one takes my problem seriously and makes me wanna ignore it until I am rock bottom screwed.

    • Hope you are doing OK beautiful angel @invincible, please take care of yourself sweetie, I know how you feel about shopping addiction, you are buying things to fill a void in your life, I have done that as well sweetheart, buying items I don’t need just because they make me feel happier, try to be careful and look after your finances sweetie so…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 month ago

    Had a good convo and cry with my family member… I feel kind of odd but relieved I told them by feelings and consequences from my depression… they are stressed out too and we got it out in the open which is the first step to healing.

    • Oli replied 1 month ago

      It’s good to see that you were able to bond with a family member @invincible, like you said, hopefully this will start a healing process where you can re-connect with your family and try to start building and working on relationships with them, hope they keep having meaningful conversations with you going forward so you feel better and happier,…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 month ago

    I know this sounds stupid too, but it’s like my (few remaining) friends are just dropping me and just making me feel so unloved and invisible. they just use me and then leave. and on social media I have been raising my voice about my personal experience with M.I., s*xual assault, eating disorder, addiction … and I don’t expect anything or any…[Read more]

    • Oli replied 1 month ago

      You deserve to be heard and acknowledged @invincible, anyone who leaves or abandons you because of struggles you have been through isn’t worth your time beautiful angel Cecelia, remember to surround yourself with love and compassion sweetie, we all deserve friends around us who listen and sympathise, who help us feel happier, try to stay focused…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 month ago

    last year i had planned a tri p to new orleans with my best friend. i los a lot of money and missed out on a great trip due to COVID. now my family members aer going to new orleans didn’t even bring it up or ask me if i wanted to go… i couldn’t afford it anyway, but yes I am jealous and resenting them big time. SO hurt. They don’t know me at…[Read more]

    • Oli replied 1 month ago

      I’m so sorry that you missed out on your trip due to COVID @invincible, hopefully you will get to go on your trip soon once things return to normal and lockdown is lifted in the USA sweetie, your family members really should be considerate and they should let you come along because than you would be able to make your trip happen, please don’t…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 month, 1 week ago

    my depression & fatigue has been so bad and no one is there (family/friends) to support or encourage me… it just makes me feel worse that no one cares to notice or help..

    • I care about you and want nothing but the best for you @invincible, please don’t feel like that, you are loved beautiful angel Cecelia and you do matter, those closest to you should always support and be there for you Cecelia, you will beat depression and fatigue, please take care of yourself sweetheart, relax when you can Cecelia, focus on all…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 month, 1 week ago

    I am really becoming self aware of my depression and how serious it is. I might need to see my doctor for an increase of my meds.

    I feel so alone though, given all my friends and all my family members deny/ reject my disorder and instead enable and ignore it. Ha.

    • Do reach out for help, support and guidance when you need too @invincible, do go to the doctors sweetie if you need help in getting the right medications or therapy so you can overcome depression, I want to see you feeling positive, upbeat and happy beautiful angel Cecelia, your family and friends really should support and be there for you…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 2 months, 1 week ago

    why can’t I find a decent guy, or let a lone friend?? Anyway, I’ve attracted yet another guy who is too fucked up in his own problems to develop anything towards me, besides his own emotionally unstable illusions so I am spending saturday watching Just Married on youtube and doing my psych. midterm. cheers! I do have some good news tho… got a…[Read more]

    • You are such a beautiful, special and lovely angel who truly deserves a relationship with someone who will show you love @invincible, we all struggle in life but we should always take the time to show those closest to us how much we care about them, try to have a good weekend beautiful angel Cecelia, I’m sure you will do fantastically in your…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 2 months, 2 weeks ago

    I have felt so hated and ignored since birth, why would I stop feeling that now?

    • Please don’t feel like that @invincible, you are loved beautiful angel Cecelia and so many people care about you sweetie, I want to see you feeling happy sweetheart, smile because you are so amazing, awesome and wonderful Cecelia, don’t let mean or toxic people break you sweetie, focus on making yourself upbeat, hold your head up high and make…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 2 months, 2 weeks ago

    It’s hurtful when your family member that is the only one you can trust and love doesn’t and doesn’t want to admit the trauma I’ve gone through and the struggles I currently go thru. It’s fucked up.

    • You deserve so much better @invincible, your family should support and always be there for you beautiful angel Cecelia, they shouldn’t dismiss or play down your thoughts, feelings and emotions sweetheart, please know so many people love and care about you Cecelia, I do and so does everyone here on BT, you are truly brave and courageous Cecelia,…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 2 months, 3 weeks ago

    since the government is holding the money they owe me, I have missed out on the opportunity of buying a car, buying athletic wear and workout gear to better my health, props for my blogs and paying someone who needed some cash. thanks. i will not be planning tostay in this shitty ass state.

    • The government really should pay you the money that you are owed @invincible, hopefully they will get their act together and send out the money, I hope things work out for you beautiful angel Cecelia, try to stay upbeat sweetie and keep smiling, you can do it, feel free to inbox me anytime if you ever need to talk Cecelia, stay strong, you are…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 2 months, 4 weeks ago

    slipping back 2 an old habit … :/

    • Please don’t let destructive habits break you @invincible, I want to see you feeling wonderful and happy beautiful angel Cecelia, remember to hold your head up high and know you are so brave, courageous and special, things may be hard but you will overcome any hurdles that life throws at you sweetie, you are a survivor and fighter Cecelia, always…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 3 months ago

    Just feeling so disregarded and unloved and uncared for and just not given a damn about by family and friends. I’ve never felt this bad. Especially at such a time like the pandemic and quarantine.

    IDK who I can count on now. Except or my cat, ofc. But no humans really seem to be within eye sight. No one who really knows me at least, I have one…[Read more]

    • When I say I’ve never felt this bad, I mean in my modern young adult life. Like 19+

    • Oli replied 3 months ago

      I don’t want to see you feeling sad and unloved @invincible, you are such a beautiful, lovely and wonderful angel who deserves to feel supported, loved and cared for Cecelia, anyone who treats you badly isn’t worth it sweetie, I want to see you truly happy Cecelia, remember to always surround yourself with compassion, hope and positivity…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 3 months ago

    If a loved one is reaching out to you, or a stranger is reaching out to you trying to help you or be in your life for support – please hear them out and accept it. At least accept them into your life. You don’t know how lucky you are. How grateful and blessed and loved you are. I would have killed for just some acknowledgment and some support…[Read more]

    • Good to know that you are fine and doing great on your own.. We love to help everyone with love in our hearts.. Have a great day,, and share love..

    • Oli replied 3 months ago

      Awww glad the community here on BT can always support and be here for you @invincible, remember you are such a beautiful, lovely and special angel who deserves happiness in her life Cecelia, you were put on this earth to do fantastic things sweetie and make all your dreams come true, don’t let dark moments beat you sweetie, please don’t harm or…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 3 months, 2 weeks ago

    I had a dream where I traveled through a hurricane, a sketchy alley way, an attempted mugging and a busy street for my cat. So true. I would do anything for her.

    • The dream shows how truly protective, loyal and loving you are @invincible, you are so awesome and wonderful beautiful Cecelia, remember to always look after your little ball of cuteness, by which I mean your cat hehe, do take care of yourself too Cecelia, keep smiling sweetie and always be kind to yourself Cecelia, please know I will always be…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 4 months, 2 weeks ago

    May I and anyone reading this grow, learn, and succeed in 2021. ♥ Cheers and happy new year. stay safe.

    • Thank you for sharing an inspirational new years post here on BT @invincible, hope you have a wonderful 2021 beautiful angel Cecelia filled with happiness and positivity because you truly deserve to shine and feel incredible sweetheart, remember I’ll always be here if you ever need to talk, feel free to inbox me anytime, stay strong, you are never…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 4 months, 3 weeks ago

    I had no idea I was THIS fucking weak and pathetic. Wow.

    • Please don’t think like that @invincible, you are so kind, compassionate and beautiful Cecelia, don’t let anyone or anything bring you down sweetie, always be good to yourself Cecelia because you are truly incredible sweetheart, smile Cecelia and be as optimistic as you can sweetie, you can do it Cecelia, feel free to inbox me anytime if you…[Read more]

    • @invincible Hey. What happened?

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    Cecelia posted an update 4 months, 3 weeks ago

    Guess who has come back into my life.. the person that I was super close with and they just dumped me for several months leaving me in a state of confusion and depression. Hm. Now they are just acting like everything is fine. and It is super hard to not give in.

    • They should not have dumped you @invincible, they should apologise to you and try to make things right, I would do what you feel is beneficial and positive emotionally and mentally for yourself sweetie, I don’t want to see you hurt at all beautiful angel Cecelia, honestly the best thing to do is to cut toxic people out of your life and surround…[Read more]

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