In reply to: Rexla posted an update Why do all the identical grammatically incorrect posts below make me think this is all a scam of some sort and just a waste of my time? View
I'm an incredibly lonely married mother to an amazing daughter. I've lived in a sexless marriage for more than a decade. I have no close friends that live within visiting range. I'm too broke to afford therapy but I think of suicide nearly every day and even know how I would do it all the while knowing I would never do it for the solitary reason of my daughter. She truly is my reason for living. She recently left for college and I'm struggling harder every day to hold on. I'm so lonely and need a friend to hug me or at the very least to feel needed and useful and not so invisible. I'm deaf in one ear so tend to avoid socializing because I can't hear whats being said by even the people right beside me. I get even sadder and so frustrated when I try to attend social events. My nearest family is a 9 hr drive but they drive me crazy within a few hours. My sister just yells and screams and my mom just wants to watch TV and check out. My dad just wants to drink himself to sleep by 7pm each night. So it's best to only visit with them and take them in small doses a few times a year. I don't know what to do with myself….I just need this loneliness and pain to stop. I'm 45 years old and just existing and not living. Side note: why does the age thingy only page down only to age 31? Am I too old to post here? sounds about right….
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