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    Hayden posted an update 6 years, 10 months ago

    It feels like the walls are caving in around me, and I’m really starting to scare myself.
    I know I used to feel bad, but then I got better. Now it’s like I’m sinking again, and this time around, I’m sinking even lower. I cut for the first time in over a year the other day, and at this point, I don’t even regret it. And I don’t think a night has passed where I haven’t thought about trying to escape it all.
    All of my distractions are slowly beginning to fail me. Music, writing, laughter. It’s all being overtaken by my damn mind, and I just can’t stop it.
    I don’t know if I can do this anymore.

    • I agree with @delirious-carnium. The real Hayden is amazing and strong. If you got better once, you can get better again because now you are stronger. Keep fighting like you did before. I believe in you @devilndisguise . Feel free to message me if you want to.

    • Keep fighting and don’t let the bad moments get you down @devilndisguise, you are such a lovely, kind and caring person Hayden who will make it and come out so much stronger, remember to hold your head up high and focus on the brightness of your future Hayden, we will all be here to support you no matter what, keep being the wonderful, angelic person that you are, you can do it Hayden :) (hugs)

    • Sometimes just surviving is the hardest thing to do, Hayden. I’m proud of you for persevering. And when this wave passes, and you look back on this moment someday, I think you’ll be proud of yourself, too.

      If there’s anything I can do to help, please let me know.

      *hugs* <3