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    Kat posted an update 3 years, 4 months ago

    I feel like my heart is going to explode. I finally started to apply for jobs and got invited to an interview in the next few days, which is great, but I’ve never worked before and I don’t know what to say. I’ve spent the entire day researching how and it’s helped a little, but given the lack of social skills that I possess I feel like I’m going to completely fail the interview. It seems even more likely because yesterday I had to call the company for information and felt like I couldn’t breathe; it took me almost an hour to stop shaking and freaking out. If I can’t even make a phone call I don’t think a face-to-face interview is going to go very well. I am proud to say that I haven’t self-harmed in a two or three months, but I hate myself more than ever now and it’s only going to get worse in a few weeks when school (and my junior year) begins. Even just writing about everything is making it hard to breathe. All I want to do is curl up in a ball and cry the rest of the day, maybe fall asleep and never wake up. This all sounds a little petty but it’s suffocating me little by little and no one is noticing.

    Mood : Depressed
    • Please don’t feel down @deadtotheworld, you’ll do great at the job interview, be confident and smile, I’m sure you will be OK, just do your best and be upbeat, remember you have a bright and amazing future ahead that is filled with so many fantastic moments Kat, do make all your goals and dreams come true, believe in yourself and keep going forward with confidence, I know you can do it sweetie, you are a warrior Kat, I’m always here if you need to chat or vent, message me anytime if you want, my inbox is always open, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • No no you are not, you just have to act, kind of. You will do better than you think!! :) Breathe!!!!