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    Ana posted an update 9 years, 6 months ago

    I sometimes think too hard about what is ‘good’ and what is ‘bad’. I expect too much and I don’t just think about things that are small. Smiles and hugs and talks. Yeah, life is pretty dark. But I’m so upset and negative that I close my eyes and I don’t see those little lights that are shining through and letting me see things. Making…[Read more]

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    Ana posted an update 9 years, 6 months ago

    I presented a poem in class today. I wrote it. It was a dramatic reading. And do you know how amazing, how energizing, how, powerful that makes you feel to read that to people and have them listen and understand you for a second. It’s just fantastic and i FEEL SO GOOD

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    Ana posted an update 9 years, 6 months ago

    There was this new guy at work today, and we were talking and I totally fell for him. I hate lip rings. And when his shift ended, he put lip rings back in(which I didn’t know he wore). And I think that I loved his personality so much that it didn’t even phase me. Food for thought…

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    Ana posted an update 9 years, 6 months ago

    That point when it’s early in the morning and you’re on the bus for 45 minutes to get to school, and you’re inside the seat curled up leaning on the window even though it’s bumping you up and down, and you have your headphones in and you’re still a little sleepy, and you just sit there and listen. And it takes you to another world.

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    Ana posted an update 9 years, 6 months ago

    When you learn to accept things the way they are, and you just let things be, you feel better. When you stop thinking so much about scary situations and the horrors going on inside your head, you feel better. When you stop crying and start doing things, start being busy and try to smile(forced or not), you feel better. When I stop acting like I…[Read more]

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    Ana posted an update 9 years, 6 months ago

    I’m tired.

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    Ana posted an update 9 years, 7 months ago

    My theatre teacher is having us read a poem to the class and put emotion into it. I can’t wait. I’m gonna blast it so much and put every horrible feeling I’ve ever had into that poem. Because nobody has to know I wrote it.

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    Ana posted an update 9 years, 7 months ago

    I wonder what it would be like to cry tears of joy. To have happiness running down my cheek, instead of getting a headache and heartache with my eyes burning and bursting out pure sadness and frustration and fear. I’ve always wondered what it’s like to be truly happy and stay that way. Have that be like your personality.

    • You can be happy @daisyanam, everyone deserves to smile, you do too, try your best to remain positive, you are so amazing and strong, don’t give up, you will make it through this, we are all here for you, remember that you are never alone, keep your head up, you are such a wonderful and great person, keep moving forward and looking ahead, you…[Read more]

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    Ana posted an update 9 years, 7 months ago

    Depression is a hole with slippery edges. They’re climbable, but very tough. And sometimes you make a wrong decision and step in the wrong spot, and you fall back in deeper.

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    Ana posted an update 9 years, 7 months ago

    I’m so excited to go back. I’m slowly hoisting myself out of depression. Nothing makes me happier than to be at school:) I got God watching over me and friends by my side:)

    Mood : Cheerful
    • Great to see you happy, keep smiling @daisyanam, keep it up!, stay positive, upbeat and full of optimism, if you need to talk or need a friend, I’m always here, feel free to message me anytime if you want, my inbox is always open, stay strong, you are not alone :) (hugs)

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    Ana posted an update 9 years, 7 months ago

    Took 4 years but he’s finally in a class of mine. I saw him walk in and I got so ecstatic!

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    Ana posted an update 9 years, 7 months ago

    “So familiarize what having to swallow this pill is like, it happens all the time they take your heart and steal your life, and it’s as though you feel you’ve died, cause’ you’ve been killed inside, but yet you’re still alive, which means you must survive! Although today you may weep cause you’re weak and, everything seems so bleak and…[Read more]

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    Ana posted an update 9 years, 7 months ago

    Just a few more hours before I go to bed and the pain will start to go away….

    Mood : Excited
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    Ana posted an update 9 years, 7 months ago

    At least that day went fast. Only two more before I have something to distract me from this pain I’ve been feeling lately…

    Mood : Anxious
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    Ana posted an update 9 years, 7 months ago

    Gotta stop trusting my moods…I’m like the temperature in the desert. Up in the day and waaayyy down at night. I want to give this mood some crazy label, but can I just say ’sad’?

    Mood : Sad
    • Please don’t be sad @daisyanam, try to stay positive and smile, you deserve to be happy, you can do this, don’t give up, I believe in you, keep your head up, you will make it through this difficult time and come out so much stronger, you are never alone, feel free to message me anytime if you want to talk, my inbox is always open :) (hugs)

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    Ana posted an update 9 years, 7 months ago

    I think I’ll just be happy for no reason. Smiles and hugs:)

    Mood : Happy
    • Great to see you happy @daisyanam, keep your head up, I’m always here if you need to talk about anything, stay strong, you are not alone, feel free to message me anytime if you want, my inbox is always open :) (hugs)

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    Ana posted an update 9 years, 7 months ago

    @oliver I really appreciate your comments, they are very helpful. You’re an awesome guy for helping everyone out on here. It’s awesome to have you. And I also apologize for being unresponsive before, but my moods were all over the place and I didn’t want to get upset at you on accident. Thanks for helping me out and being here!

    Mood : Thankful
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    Ana posted an update 9 years, 7 months ago

    I give up trying to get someone to help me. I need to use my twisted mind…to figure out my twisted mind.

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    Ana posted an update 9 years, 7 months ago

    “Some days I feel like —-, some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit. I don’t understand why you have to always be gone, I get along but the trips always feel so long, and, I find myself trying to stay by the phone cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone but I feel like and idiot, working my day around a call but when…[Read more]

    • Don’t give up @daisyanam, don’t quit, you can make it through all your struggles and difficulties, things will work out for you, keep your head up, remember to smile and be as positive as you can, you deserve happiness, keep moving forward, you are strong and are never alone, we are all here for you, you are amazing and wonderful, you will do…[Read more]

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    Ana posted an update 9 years, 7 months ago

    I’m sorry if all I sound like is I’m complaining but life keeps on complicating and, I’m debating on leaving the world this evening even my girls can see I’m grieving, I try to hide it but I can’t, why do I act like I’m all high and mighty when inside I’m dying. I’m finally realizing that I need help, too weak, 2 weeks I’ve been having…[Read more]

    Mood : Dark
    • Things will get better, you are strong and you are never alone @daisyanam, keep your head up, you deserve to be here and you deserve happiness, don’t ever give up, you are a beautiful and wonderful soul, remember to stay positive and keep smiling, things will be OK, keep moving forward, you have great qualities in you, you will overcome, don’t…[Read more]

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