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    Terrified To Love posted an update 2 years, 6 months ago

    I’m certainly not mentally stable enough to go to this Candlelight Vigil, but it is rude not to go. I’m already on rocky ground with two finals tomorrow…that I don’t feel confident about. Definitely not ready, but I don’t want people to think I am an awful person for not going since it is for my sorority.

    Mood : Drained
    • I would go to the vigil only if you feel completely ready and comfortable too @chynna323, I’m sure you will make the right decision that will benefit you, look after yourself and stay positive, you will be OK, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • @chynna323 I suppose this is an event on your college right? Either way is not rude to go. You have a life, if you can’t go, you can’t. Is nothing personal to anyone. Just say “sorry man I have finals tomorrow and I’m totally not ready”. And if someone tells you that you’re lame or something, screw that. What is the most important are your…[Read more]

    • If you can’t go, it should be fine. Pay your respects before and afterwards. Don’t put extra stress on yourself.

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    Terrified To Love posted a new activity comment 3 years, 1 month ago

    In reply to: Terrified To Love posted an update A girl asked me on a date, and she is really awesome. However, nobody is aware of my sexuality so I have to keep it quiet. View

    @yamoros12

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    Terrified To Love posted a new activity comment 3 years, 1 month ago

    In reply to: Terrified To Love posted an update A girl asked me on a date, and she is really awesome. However, nobody is aware of my sexuality so I have to keep it quiet. View

    Because I’m not out, and don’t intend on coming out any time soon.

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    Terrified To Love replied to the forum topic The Ruin a Wish Foundation. in the group Group logoBlahTherapy Arcade 3 years, 1 month ago

    Granted but you can never hear the music you make, even though others can.

    I wish that my dorm was bigger.

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    Terrified To Love posted an update 3 years, 1 month ago

    A girl asked me on a date, and she is really awesome. However, nobody is aware of my sexuality so I have to keep it quiet.

    Mood : Nervous
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    Terrified To Love posted an update 4 years, 9 months ago

    I’m not ok. I keep trying and trying and trying to be ok but I’m not. Everything hurts, everything is just too much. I tell myself that it will all pass and I can be normal, but the time until then seems infinite. While the time that I feel normal feels infinitesimal. Maybe it’s just me. Maybe there is something wrong with me…I don’t know.…[Read more]

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    Terrified To Love posted an update 4 years, 9 months ago

    Midterms are coming up. I’m not ready for them, nor the judgement that follows. I’m overwhelmed and anxious and I swear my heart is moving at 10000mph but some how the world is managing to go infinite times faster than that.

    Mood : Anxious
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    Terrified To Love posted an update 5 years ago

    I hate how much he reminds me of HIM even though they are nothing alike. I hate how entire phrases have been forced out of his vocabulary because of HIM. I hate how his hands and HIS hands are impossible to differentiate when he hugs me by surprise. I hate hearing his voice break because he can’t bear to see me pain. I hate pushing him away to…[Read more]

    Mood : Depressed
    • Oli replied 5 years ago

      Are you OK? @chynna323, I’m here if you need to talk, message me anytime if you want, my inbox is always open, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

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    Terrified To Love posted an update 5 years, 1 month ago

    Wore myself out crying, but I’m feeling a lot more calm now.

    Mood : Tired
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    Terrified To Love posted a new activity comment 5 years, 1 month ago

    In reply to: Terrified To Love posted an update I fucking hate myself right now, more than i’ve ever hated myself. I am such an idiot. I fucking suck at everything. I have a 59 in English. All I had to fucking do […] View

    Thank you so much, your support really means a lot.

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    Terrified To Love posted a new activity comment 5 years, 1 month ago

    In reply to: Terrified To Love posted an update I want to punch a brick wall View

    I managed to fracture a bone last time I did that.

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    Terrified To Love posted an update 5 years, 1 month ago

    I want to punch a brick wall

    Mood : Angry
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    Terrified To Love joined the group Group logoSexuality Questions 5 years, 1 month ago

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    Terrified To Love posted an update 5 years, 1 month ago

    I fucking hate myself right now, more than i’ve ever hated myself. I am such an idiot. I fucking suck at everything. I have a 59 in English. All I had to fucking do was my summer assignment, but I caved in and let motherfucking depression rule over me and I never did it. God, I am so fucking lazy. I contemplated not even coming home…[Read more]

    Mood : Ashamed
    • Please don’t hate yourself @chynna323, things will work out for you, you are such a wonderful and amazing person, keep your head up, you can and will make it through this, you will win this battle, don’t give up, keep fighting, you will do great things in life, you are strong and you are never alone, stay positive, upbeat and optimistic, you…[Read more]

    • Thank you so much, your support really means a lot.

    • 59% or a different type of grading system. Don’t get to down on grades my sister failed most of her alevels and still got into one the best drama schools in the country. Remember that there are different paths to the same goal. If you keep that in mind you will be wonderful. Don’t worry about your mother she may yell but are parents 100% right…[Read more]

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    Terrified To Love started the forum topic Childish in the group Group logoVent It! 5 years, 3 months ago

    WARNING: In this post contains mentions of self-injury and some foul language.

    With this said, we may now continue on to the post.
    ~`~`~`~`~

    I know many people come on here to listen to real problems, […]

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    Terrified To Love posted an update 5 years, 4 months ago

    Exhausted, but unable to sleep. My mind is awake thinking of possibilities upon infinite possibilities, and struggling to find truth in them all.

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    Terrified To Love replied to the forum topic Why? in the group Group logoVent It! 5 years, 4 months ago

    @swifting Yes, I suppose it could be. Any form of routine should be helpful, I guess I shoujd atleast have scheduled wake, rest, and eating times. Thanks for the advice.

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    Terrified To Love replied to the forum topic Why? in the group Group logoVent It! 5 years, 4 months ago

    @djnotnice @swifting It’s hard not to compare myself to others, though I try. It’s just something I constantly do. I also saw that phrase online it makes a lot of sense. I was diagnosed with depression a few […]

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    Terrified To Love started the forum topic Why? in the group Group logoVent It! 5 years, 4 months ago

    I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m so confused. Life is always kicking me when I’m down, and now there is just nothing. Not anything. Sure, I know there are people that have it worse than me and my first […]

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    Terrified To Love posted an update 5 years, 4 months ago

    I want to give up, but I can’t.

    Mood : Exhausted
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