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    J.W replied to the forum topic Starting a new blog in the group Group logoAspiring Writers 6 years, 4 months ago

    Thanks Mariko! :)

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    J.W replied to the forum topic What's your blog? in the group Group logoBloggers Unites! 6 years, 4 months ago

    https://sadpotate.wordpress.com I blog about depression. Its for sufferers, carers, and friends.

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    J.W started the forum topic Starting a new blog in the group Group logoAspiring Writers 6 years, 4 months ago

    After a year of not writing (writing short stories and YA fiction used to be my passion), I have started a blog about mental health, to pass the time while I am in bed. I feel like I have achieved something! Would […]

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    J.W posted an update 6 years, 4 months ago

    After a very difficult couple of days I made it to the doctors. It has been a very hard day but they referred me to the community mental health team and I am finally going to be assessed by a social worker and get psychological support. I had convinced myself that my case wasn’t urgent and I didn’t deserve help, but talking about what’s wrong…[Read more]

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    • @jawn aw that’s lovely! You should be very proud of yourself!
      I have one question though how did your doctor sent you to it? I’m thinking of asking for help but since I’m unsure of the procedures..

    • It’s good to see you reaching out to find the right help and support that will benefit you @jawn, I’m sure you will find a therapist or counsellor who you will be able to open up too, do get your thoughts and feelings out so you can brightly smile and be upbeat, remember you are such a special individual who truly deserves happiness, everything…[Read more]

    • Thank you Oli, I always appreciate your comments. You are a great help to so many people on this site, and have made me feel less alone!

    • Hey, I just went to the doctors, I said it was urgent and I needed support, and was very honest about everything I had been thinking and feeling lately, and answered their questions. They called another service to refer me, and I was accepted, and the community mental health people called me later that day for an assessment. I don’t think its…[Read more]

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    J.W posted an update 6 years, 4 months ago

    I didn’t make it into work today. Feel like a failure, and such a useless burden.

    Mood : Embarrassed
    • Please don’t think like that @jawn, you are such a wonderful, fantastic and amazing person, I want to see you truly smiling and living each day to the fullest, do go into work when you feel comfortable enough too, remember your health and happiness come first, everything will be OK, you are not a failure or burden, be upbeat because you are…[Read more]

    • aw I’m sorry, but please don’t be too hard on yourself, it will be OK.

    • Thank you for your comments, it is so nice to know that there are still friendly people on this sight looking out for other people. I contacted my manager but it was hard. I am trying to accept what I am able to do, and not be too upset if I can’t do something

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    Blueberry posted an update 7 years, 10 months ago

    why does dying have to be so difficult? stupid human evolution

    • Please don’t think like that @buenowaffle, you deserve to be here, you were put on this earth to do amazing things and to make a positive impact, do your best to focus on doing things in life that bring you happiness, hope and joy, smile and remember everything will be OK, you are a fighter who will overcome and who never gives up, believe in…[Read more]

    • you are a successor of an evolutionary tree that spans across 3.5 billion years, your ancestors have gone through thick and thin to carry their legacy on. you can say burden may have been forced next upon you but hey at least we know that they succeeded, and so can you :) (not implying in any way shape or form that you have to have children if you…[Read more]

    • Now is not your time to go,you can get through this, I know you can, you owe it to your future self not to give up!

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    Blueberry posted an update 7 years, 10 months ago

    guys im pretty sure i used to have anxiety but as i became more depressed it kinda faded away a bit. i remember being super scared of going into stores and stuff and now i dont care all that much. its like theres this old little friend in the back of my mind panicking but i keep walking into the store. i also am a lot of a gentleman and if my…[Read more]

    • Try to relax and focus on making yourself feel good and calm @buenowaffle, take deep breathes and try to stay positive, maybe try meditation, hopefully it will help you feel at ease, I want the best for you, hold your head up high, keep going and don’t give up, you can do it, I’m always here if you need to chat or vent, message me anytime, my…[Read more]

    • thats not exactly what i was looking for but okay

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    Blueberry posted an update 7 years, 11 months ago

    oh right guys i got some meds for my sadness and they didnt even need to investigate what was wrong. my two plans are now: wait until after gradustion to start taking them cause the side effects are even more depression and if i get those side effects i will surely not be able to do qnything at all and ill get multiple Fs. or take them all at once and die

    • Please don’t harm yourself @buenowaffle, do your best to keep fighting and focus on your wonderful future that lies ahead for you, you have so much to see and do in life, great things will happen and you will make all your dreams come true, everything will be OK, hold your head up high and remember to smile, be kind to yourself and never give up,…[Read more]

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    Blueberry posted an update 7 years, 11 months ago

    is it normal to fantasize about the creepy guys you once met and you at the moment were terrified that they were going to rape you? i think i just have a serious lack of touch and affection..

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    Blueberry posted an update 7 years, 11 months ago

    sorry im kinda stressed

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    Blueberry posted an update 7 years, 11 months ago

    also please understand that im not sad anf suicidal because something happened im just fucking depressed

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    Blueberry posted an update 7 years, 11 months ago

    fucking shit i just realized ive been constantly distracting myself cause if im distracted i feel fine and i know that once i stop distracting myself ill be sad and once im sad ill be looking for hooks or other stuff where i can freaking hang myself and im actually scared i dont know it feels like im different people depending on my mood but im…[Read more]

    • Do relax and focus on making yourself feel positive and happy @buenowaffle, you are a good person who will do great things, I want to see you feeling uplifted and fantastic, don’t let anything stand in your way, you can do it, believe in yourself and never give up, remember you are a warrior who will overcome, I’m always here if you need to chat…[Read more]

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    Blueberry posted an update 7 years, 11 months ago

    im gonna kill myself but i dont wanna ruin any furniture or anything and i dont want it to look too horrible for the people who find me dead, what do i do? i also cant find any hooks to hang a rope on, since i dont wanna risk breaking the lamp

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    Blueberry posted an update 7 years, 11 months ago

    guys, i need help. i dont understand. im depressed, im sure of it, no professional has questioned it yet and im sure no other will, cause when i tell them about it they get that i actually am. but people keep saying “when youre depressed you dont care about anything”, but i care. i care mor3 about my appearence now than ever, because i *hate*…[Read more]

    • you need to let your peers and your family members know (if they already don’t), know that you aren’t alone and there’s so many people out there willing to help albeit some of them won’t be able to understand. focus on yourself first before others, what’s happening to you now is not your own fault. stay strong, things will get better in one…[Read more]

    • I would try to talk to someone about how you feel @buenowaffle, maybe a professional or a person you trust, please don’t let sadness and pain get you down, you will overcome all the tough times and come out so much stronger, remember to hold your head up high and focus on making each day bright and amazing, you are a fighter who never gives up,…[Read more]

    • I dont think you should have to go through that kind of pain on your own.

    • guys, i mean, people are saying im not depressed cause i care

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    Blueberry posted an update 8 years ago

    i wish i was a likeable person

    • Oli replied 8 years ago

      You are a wonderful and amazing person @buenowaffle, please be kind to yourself and see yourself in an uplifting way, I want to see you truly smiling and being the special individual that you know you can be, believe in yourself and keep going, you can do it, I’m always here if you need to chat or vent :) (hugs)

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    Blueberry posted an update 8 years ago

    i dont wanna get medicine or be cured or be diagnosed with something else than depression. it feels like then ill still be dad and suicidal but no one will believe me and it wont be for real and stuff

    • sad*

    • Oli replied 8 years ago

      You don’t deserve any sadness @buenowaffle, you will make it through all the difficult times and come out so much stronger, remember to hold your head up high, so many more brighter and better days will be ahead, your future is filled with hope and joy, please believe that, everything will be OK and things will work out, keep being the fabulous…[Read more]

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    Blueberry posted an update 8 years, 1 month ago

    i dont understand why they keep encouraging me exercising when ive told them i only exercise cause i hate myself mulitple times. i literally started exercising cause i wanted to hurt myself but thought ”hey, im fat and ugly and i hate exercising so why not exercise to hurt/punish myself and ill get fit at the same time”

    • Please take care of yourself @buenowaffle, do stay healthy and be kind to yourself, remember you are beautiful and incredible inside and out, I want to see you feeling positive and truly loving yourself, don’t hurt yourself, focus on being happier in mind, body and soul, you can do it, believe in yourself and don’t give up, I’m always here if…[Read more]

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    Blueberry posted an update 8 years, 1 month ago

    so im supposed to see some sort of school therapist soon. i dunno.. im not sure ill dare.. what am i even supposed to tell her

    • Tell them how you are truly feeling about life @buenowaffle, I’m sure you will be able to open up and express yourself clearly, hopefully the therapy will help you, keep going and don’t give up, feel free to message me anytime if you want to chat or vent, my inbox is always open, stay strong. you are never alone :) (hugs)

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    J.W posted an update 8 years, 1 month ago

    A month after I stopped counselling, I thought I’d be all better but I’m still struggling with finding the motivation to do anything/go outside. Finding social interaction difficult, awkward and confusing too, even with close family. I’m looking for a new job but no idea how I’m going to cope with working.

    Mood : Alone
    • Maybe you could try going to counselling again @jawn, I know how you feel, I’m shy too and I don’t really go out very much at all, do your best to try to meet new people if you can, find a new hobby or activity to keep you going, I’m sure you will be able to confidently and openly express yourself, be positive and kind to yourself, hopefully…[Read more]

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    Blueberry posted an update 8 years, 1 month ago

    im worthless and no one will ever like me for real

    • its okay though, i dont deserve it

    • Please don’t think like that @buenowaffle, you are such a special and fantastic individual who deserves to smile and feel fabulous, please be kind to yourself and don’t let anything get you down, I may not know you personally but I do care and I always will, I’m sure so many other people do care about you also, try to focus on all the positives…[Read more]

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