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    Ko posted an update 3 weeks, 2 days ago

    sorry for disappearing again for 2 months, i need to rant about something. i hate my ocd so much. i can’t stop repeatedly thinking and doing things its so annoying. like when im on social media i’ll always recheck my inboxes many times to see if i accidentally sent something or i did something which i know i didn’t but if i don’t recheck i’ll get anxiety, i got a panic attack from rechecking my inboxes so much once. during classes i’d tap repeatedly to a certain amount of numbers and people tell me to stop but if i do i’ll feel so fucking uncomfy. that’s not all, i EVEN get grossed out by myself. sometimes i’d drink half a bottle and then throw it to the side and drink a new bottle. it’s just,, the thought of continuing that bottle grosses me out bc i already put my mouth on it and my mom gets mad at me for it. i always get angry and violent for no reason too,, like my mom would ask a simple question or something and i’d scream at her and become angry i feel so horrible. i feel like a huge annoying asshole, like a freak or something.

    • Please don’t let your struggles with OCD break you down @caramel4, don’t be afraid to reach out for help and support when you need it, remember to hold your head up high and know you will overcome any hurdles that life throws at you, your family and people around you should be compassionate and try to help you as much as they can, I would talk to your mother and let her know about how things are going, I’m sure she will listen and be there for you, remember you are a brave warrior, survivor and fighter who will make it through this, always believe in yourself and never give up, you can do it, feel free to inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)