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    $teve posted an update 1 year, 6 months ago

    Waking up: 100%
    Acknowledging society: 99.5%
    Accepting life the way it is: 77.6%

    Hey, how’s it been mates? Hope ya’ll had a great summer, considering that it ends in about a week or so, and I hope that ya’ll relaxed and enjoyed yourselves during this time. School is about to start, not looking forward to it, but I have to just push through with it. I’ve been trying to help others in terms of loneliness and bullying, and I hope that i’ve helped enough for that person the last couple of days. I’m now starting to accept things slowly, but surely, and I hope that what i’m accepting will be beneficial for me in the future. One thing i’ve learnt is that even if things are daunting, even if there are things ignorant in your daily life, even if you wanna stop, you must push through for the best, and hopefully it’ll have been worth it on the long-run. It’s ok if you wanna change things also, as long as it’s something you personally wanted changed in your life, and if it’ll be beneficial for your wellbeing. Ever since I came onto this website, i’ve realized that there is still a chance i’ll make it instead of ending it. I’ve met amazing people here, they’ve given me the best advice, the best tips, the best compliments, it’s all been giving me a better mood every day. Sometimes I wish that my parents would stop arguing with each other, but at the same time I get it since not all the time they can agree on one thing, but sometimes it gets too personal and it kind of pisses me off, but it’s something almost every family goes through, so I guess it’s normal to say the least. I’ve been more and more insecure about my body as each day passes, and i’ve tried to change it but I haven’t acted upon it yet, and perhaps if I change my insecurity, maybe i’ll look more normal and less suspicious and questionable among others. One thing that’s been making me debate with my 2 older sisters is college. I have mixed feelings about it, and to be honest with ya’ll, for now I ain’t planning to go even though i’m a junior and i have like a year left to consider the options that are in front of me. Sure, college is necessary to get a decent job that pays a considerable amount of money, but at the same time I don’t think it’s worth it personally. Obviously that’s now and anything could make me reconsider in the future, but for now I just don’t see myself at that phase when it’s that time to make the decision. That’s basically all i’ve been doing and thinking the past weeks, and i’m starting to now consider changing things for the best, even if others don’t find it normal, at least it’ll have helped me and my identity. Thank you guys for sticking with me, and always being there when i’m troubled, it’s always appreciated.

    Special thanks to @FadingEcho and @Oliver for being there from the beginning, and to those who joined later on, thank you for finding me and giving me your support and care, it’s truly appreciated.

    We’ll never walk alone

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    • It’s great to see you determined to live a happier life @anxietyattack66, do stay positive and remember to always do what makes you happy Steve, you will do amazing things in life and you will make all your dreams come true, remember to always be kind to yourself and embrace every part of yourself inside and out because you are incredible and fantastic, everything will be OK Steve and things will work out for you, I would talk to your parents about how the arguing makes you feel, I’m sure they will listen and take your feelings into consideration, remember no matter what happens Steve, you are truly loved and cared for by all of us here on BT, everyone on BT wants the best for you and so do I, keep smiling Steve and always be the awesome human-being that you are, I will always be here for you and so will the BT community Steve, feel free to inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)