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    $teve posted an update 3 weeks, 4 days ago

    A week ago, I got my MacBook fortunately and the part that really relieved me was that everything on it was saved, nothing deleted and pretty much anything that I thought was deleted was still safe on my home screen (although, I may need to delete some stuff on my home screen since it looks clustered with so many things, Almost all of it coming from my 4th period which is computer graphics.)

    In all honesty, I think i’m doing good in life, although I did sort of downgraded a little when I asked 2 of my closest friends if I looked unattractive. They both replied that I looked fine, or normal at the minimum, which I found self boosted, but at the same time I kind of thought that I looked unattractive on the inside. It’s not really that bad for some people, but for me it’s one of those things about myself that I just can’t help myself to discriminate on. It’s something that I could change, but it could change the way people look at me for specific reasons that I can’t name at the moment. Sometimes, in the bathroom mirror I look ok, but once I look at myself in other mirrors whether it’s at school, or in a car looking at the rear mirror, or basically anywhere where there is bad lighting I look unattractive. I may look normal in society, but in the inside I really feel as though i’m unattractive for reasons that may sound embarrassing.

    Anyways, I hope that these last weeks of school will be good, and if not, then there is always summer break to look forward to. This summer break may as well be my final break before unfortunately moving away to a farther location than where I am now, which means that i’ll have to change schools. It’s not confirmed yet, but my dad has been constantly talking about it. Who knows? Maybe i’ll move and still attend the same school, maybe I won’t move at all, it’s all in my dads control and power to make the decision, and we have to comply with what he says.

    Mood : Discontent
    • Please be kind to yourself @anxietyattack66, do love and embrace every part of yourself Steve, smile when you look in the mirror and see the reflection of the fantastic person you see staring back at you, hope you are able to continue going to the same school Steve, I would talk to your father about it and see what happens, it really should be your decision on what school you go too, glad you got your MacBook, remember to stay positive and keep going forward with confidence Steve, you truly deserve to lead a happy life that will be successful, always believe in yourself and never give up, you can do it Steve, keep being the awesome person that you are, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • You seem to be looking at this in a relatively positive way. I’d think nothing of some of those things bothering you. Of course, in the wrong light, we’d all look unattractive to ourselves. (Usually, as they say, we’re not our own ”type”.) Nobody’s perfect, yourself included, so understanding that is something everybody must do to accept themselves- assuming you haven’t already done that.