i thought not having friends in school wouldnt be a problem but damn am i depressed especially when even at home the more i feel depressed. the internet doesnt even make me happy it just gets my mind off sad thoughts and thats the worse because internet is supposed to be my happyland now its just a way to pass time.

@carl96190 thank you very much for your advice about my college situation! im planning on telling my family about my plans after new year (dont wanna have an awkward new year with them haha) hopefully all will be well!