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    Elly posted an update 4 years, 10 months ago

    I feel so desperate. Not in a lonely or depressed way. I just feel so frantic because I’m literally screwing up my life beyond repair. I’m watching it happen- no matter what I do, it doesn’t help. Only makes it worse. I’m 17 years old, engaged to be married in 3 months, I don’t have a job because no one will hire me due to a bad reference, I’m not going any where career wise. I don’t know how I’ve managed to make so many enemies at the age I am. I’m scared. I’m alone. I’m sick of the panic attacks, and the stress. I’M ALWAYS STRESSED. I can’t deal with this anymore! When I wanted to cut in the past it was because I was sad- depressed. Now it’s because I can’t deal with the way my life is going nowhere but in the trash and all I can do is watch. I feel so hopeless and completely lost. Everyone hates me. My life is NOT working out. I don’t know what to think when people tell me things like: It’s not as bad as it seems or ’Just get through it.’ I don’t know what’s wrong with me, mentally. I can’t think. All I am is afraid. Please help me. I want someone to tell me what to do with my life. It’s garbage.

    • Don’t let your struggles get you down @99ellen, you are such a beautiful, incredible and amazing person Elly who deserves a life filled with happiness, things will change for the better, focus on making all your dreams and goals happen Elly, remember to hold your head up high and know that there is light at the end of the tunnel, you will find a good job that will give you joy Elly, believe in and surround yourself with love, you can do it Elly, don’t ever give up, you are a survivor who will overcome, I’m always here if you need to chat or vent, feel free to inbox me anytime, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • i didn’t get my first job until i was 18, it isn’t the end of the world. i’m here if you need some help careers-wise, but it’s up to you