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    Fading Echo posted an update 2 weeks, 3 days ago

    I was on the wrong medication for the last two weeks. My psychiatrist thought my anxiety was too high, and doubled the dosage. Not only did it increase my anxiety, it completely obliterated my motivational anxiety, causing me to go into full blown “I don’t give a shit” mode, I stopped doing my classwork, my homework, and pretty much everything I needed to do. It was like I’d split in half; one half of me was saying “You should really get that done…” and the other half was saying “Or you could just not do it.” Of course, I had no motivation to do anything, so I didn’t. It’s been two weeks.
    Today, my parents cut back on my anxiety medication because they realized they literally couldn’t control me (they tried threatening to take my phone for a month and I didn’t care). Suddenly, all my anxiety came back, and most of the mental dialogue I’ve had today is something like “OH SHIT, OH SHIT, I’M GOING TO FAIL ALL MY CLASSES, I HAVE THREE PROJECTS DUE THAT I HAVEN’T STARTED, AND TWO OF THOSE THREE ARE ALREADY LATE, OH SHIT, OH SHIT,” and then it repeats. I AM GOING TO DIE OF ANXIETY, and if that doesn’t get me, my parents will when they see my grades. I can’t get anything done well because my hands won’t stop shaking and I’m in withdrawal from my ADHD meds, but I’m trying. And now I’m writing nine poems on a fractured wrist. I’M SO STRESSED.

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    • Just a couple suggestions— if you don’t have a 504 plan in place already at your school, they are available to students with diagnoses (either physical or psychological) who need reasonable accommodations to successfully access their curriculum/education. This could include extra time for assignments, shortened assignments, pull-out setting for testing, etc. (there are many). Just takes a parent request for the 504 consideration and a physician’s order stating your diagnosis and how it impacts you with school. Also, tweaking meds is never fun, but have you stepped up the talk-therapy to help you with other coping skills and self-regulation? Pills alone aren’t the fix, and sometimes more frequent psychotherapy is your answer. Best to you.

    • I would talk to your parents and doctors about your medication and other ways to help you so you feel positive, motivated and upbeat @985921sqh, you will be OK Echo, work on finding strategies to calm yourself and help you stay focused so you can achieve all your goals, everything will be OK sweetie, you will complete all your projects and be successful, I believe in you Echo and I’m so proud of you, keep going and never give up, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • That really sucks, It’s ok if you don’t want to do work at the moment, as long as you can take care of yourself and get the appropriate medications needed for your anxiety, you’ll be in safe hands. Take it easy lad, don’t build up this stress and pressure onto yourself because that’s not healthy, and it’ll slow you down even more which is not what you need in order to complete all your projects. I believe in ya lad, you’ll finish your projects, sure you’ll get some points off, but it’s better to receive a good grade than a zero, which I know you don’t want to get out of these projects.

    • @listeningemma, @oliver, and @anxietyattack66 – Thank you so much for the suggestions. I have a 504 already in place, but maybe it’s time to review my accommodations. Thank you for your kindness, too. Your words always brighten my day. And, lastly, thank you for your understanding. I really appreciate your advice.

    • @listeningemma, @oliver, and @anxietyattack66 – Thank you so much for the suggestions. I have a 504 already in place, but maybe it’s time to review my accommodations. Thank you for your kindness, too. Your words always brighten my day. And, lastly, thank you for your understanding. I really appreciate your advice.