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    Fading Echo posted an update 1 year, 5 months ago

    I feel pretty confident in saying that I fucked up, maybe irreparably.
    I woke up (this was the day before yesterday), forgot to take my meds, didn’t eat, went into withdrawal, had several screaming matches with my parents, got myself grounded for… I don’t even know how long, and now my response to anything my parents say is either ”no,” ”make me,” or ”go away.”
    Oh, and they (my parents) found out about the (relatively new) cuts on my arm. I had to literally fight my mom when she wanted to see my arm.
    Yeah, I have no idea what to do. Probably going to take my friend up on her offer of a place to crash at some point. I almost did last night, but trusted the advice of a friend and didn’t.
    Anyway, my parents are probably going to put me on 24 hour surveillance, but I don’t much care. There’s not much more they can do to me. Times like these make me want to die. (I can’t do it, though; my parents took the stuff I was planning to OD on.) Now, I’m pretty sure my family hates me, and I’m emotionally disconnected. I was laughing while my mom cried in front of me, even though I wanted to die, not laugh. I don’t know why I laughed.
    Anyway, my parents will probably be watching me really closely in the future, so I won’t be able to be on here as much.

    Mood : Disappointed
    • It’s been a fun ride amigo, but things come to an end sometime in our lives. It’s sad and terrible that your going through all this, you should just accept your friends offering if this whole thing keeps up. it’s been a tough time for me as well, but it’s not as big compared to yours. Don’t have all this build up to your ending of your own life, it’s not an issue for yourself, but anyone who was caring and supportive towards you would be in a period of grief and demise. If you need anything, just tell me or hector, we’ll be there for you, as well as this big ,supportive, caring community we have on here.

    • I would talk to your parents openly and honestly about how you feel @985921sqh, I have read your message Echo, do what you told me you were going to do, write a letter to your parents and tell them all your thoughts, feelings and emotions, please take care of yourself sweetie, you are such a fantastic person who deserves all the happiness in the world Echo, please don’t kill yourself, the dark moments will pass and so many more lovely moments will happen to you, everything will be OK Echo, you are a survivor who never gives up, always believe in yourself and keep going forward, you can do it Echo, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)