He should love you because you are truly a wonderful, special and amazing person @midnightsarrow, hopefully he will respond to you, try to stay positive and take care of yourself, I want to see you feeling truly happy, upbeat and fantastic, do stay healthy and always be kind to yourself, things will get better for you and great things will happen to you, remember to smile brightly, hold your head up high and always believe in yourself, you can do it because you are a survivor, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone (hugs)

I’m not a survivor. Still a fighter. And it won’t get better, at least not now. I do feel alone, and it’s not a feeling I care about.
I’m not a wonderful person, I’m always acting mean and respond cruelly. The only part of that that makes it semi okay is how much i apologize, just not out
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