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    Esteban posted an update 5 years, 4 months ago

    Just a thought… Sometimes I wish I knew how to respond or communicate to help people too, because all I do is complain about myself. All I can say is ”I’m sorry”, ”it must be hard” or just listen and nod. Guess I’m too exhasuted and drown in my own pain to trycommunicate with anybody even more anyway, and if I did it like I REALLY wanted to, most people won’t even understand my ways. Sure, who vocalizes and claps their hands when eating something good? Who jumps on people to say hi? Who rocks back and forth to calm themselves down? Who hits their head screaming like a monster when overwhelmed or anxious? (…) There are some stuff I can refrain myself to do now, in profit of what is seen ”natural” or ”normal”, but the problem is, it doesn’t make any sense to me and it’s unsatisfying (like for exemple among 1000 other things, a handshake to say hello). I shut what I am a long time ago, when I was still a kid people told to thats the thing he did where weird and unacceptable. Fortunately I know that I am not alone being the ”weird” one, I just wish I could be myself more outside of specific communities as well. Sorry for my bad English (it’s been a while) and boy, I almost told all my life without realising, lol. Good night everyone :)

    Mood : Lethargic
    • I want my little bro to get this thoughts, feelings and emotions out in a way that truly helps and benefits him @heartsofc, do focus on your health and happiness first little bro, you deserve to feel amazing because you are so fantastic to me, I’m sure you will get to help others Esteban, you have been there for me so much which I’m so grateful for little bro, I care about you so much, always be yourself little bro and never give up, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) <3 (hugs)

    • That’s why we are here! Sometimes we will help, and sometimes we’ll need to be helped. Don’t say sorry about not being able to help, Esteban, you have to take care of yourself first. And when you feel ready, you’ll be back helping :) . On the other hand, what you mentioned about your ways of communication; the thing is that everyone of us react and socialize in very different ways. The most common ones got socially accepted, but that doesn’t mean these are the only ones that are valid. We are all different, unique, and special, and os are you. Don’t give up and take care!

    • @m1s1m3 Thanks Marta. It just is that I don’t have the words to help people but you’re also right: it’s better I take care of myself first before trying to sort other people’s problems out. ”A blind can’t guide another blind or they’ll both fall” (or something like that) is an expression I’ve often heard, and here it cannot be more true. Wish you a good day :)