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    ClareBear posted an update 6 years, 8 months ago

    Ever since i was little i have prayed to God to help me get out of this cycle of feeling unworthy and alone and i just wish he would finally listen. Over a year ago i met my current boyfriend and i thought he would finally be that person who is my true bestfriend and lately even around him i feel so alone. I just wish i could take off this mask and stop living this show and just be myself and just get rid of it all. They say suicide is for cowards but i swear if there was a sensible way to do it without the possibility of failing like i have every other time i would do it in a heartbeat. i have tried everything and the last resort is a gun but i would feel so horrible for the person who has to see that. Theres no way to do it in a way that wont hurt the people around me and i just dont know what to do i dont want to make anyone else suffer this is so hard

    • Don’t let sadness get you down @clara332, you are such a beautiful, amazing and wonderful person who deserves to have happiness, love and positivity in her life, please don’t harm yourself, stay focused on all the things that bring you brightness, hope and joy, everything will be OK, hold your head up high and know you are a survivor who will overcome, so many great moments are ahead for you, smile because you are perfect in every single way, believe in yourself and never give up, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • @clara332 hey I’ve been there. Currently in a situation that’s similar. It’s tough but girl you must pull yourself out of it. If you need to, message me okay?

    • @clara332 People say that suicide is for cowards cause 1) if you kill yourself the problems will still remain, 2) you will hurt others equally, to the point someone might also kill themselves because you did it (fine example is Chester, the vocalist of Linkin park that died some weeks ago by hanging himself).

      Suicide my darling is no answer. I’ve been exactly where you are, you think of suicide because of despair , because you turn to every corner and the voice inside your head are screaming too loud and you have no idea what to do.
      What I can say being completly honest is surround yourself with positivity. This will sound cheesy to you, but please trust me. If you can try to do some volunteering in something you like (with kids, animals, whateaver you want) , try to find hobbies to help express your pain (writing, drawing, jogging, singing, etc) , try to spoil yourself if you can (buy a cute ring, get your nails done, etc). Basically do things for YOU, even if they are small things and they seem useless they will brighten up your day , trust me. And those tiny things will help you look back and said ”well at least I did this/got this cute thing for myself”, and that’s a start for positivity.
      Also if you can surround yourself with family and friends , if they are supportive I mean. If not, try to make online friends. Is how I stopped being suicidal, was thanks to people I met online that help me SO much , some of the people being @layla95 and @oliver , they helped me alot so I advice you to get to know them, some of the best people ever and they truly care and will help you.

      Hopefully I helped a little and if you ever need a friendly shoulder to cry on and vent with, I’m right here. You can always PM me, I’m always here.
      Sending you many many virtual hugs darling