why’d you leave medicine?

my anxiety got worse, had more severe panic attacks, made my life miserable, too many expectations, became depressed and unproductive, eventually hated it.

@maha can I ask how did you deal with the transition from medicine to chemical engineering? I did the exact same thing (but different degrees) and I’m terrified to go back this year.. idk how to adjust. Do you have any advice?
Also you should be proud of yourself for making such a hard decision and glad you’rein a better place

Glad to see you feeling happier and positive @maha, do your best to focus on all the bright moments that lie ahead for you, I’m sure amazing things will happen to you and your degree will go well, be as upbeat as you can and never give up, you can do it, I’m always here if you need to chat or vent, feel free to inbox me anytime, stay strong, you are never alone (hugs)

oh @mariko (btw how do u do the mention thing) well idk, both engineering and medicine are hard lol
i guess engineering is more forgiving, considering you’re not dealing with human lives.
idk if this applies to you, because we’re all different, but the reason i joined medicine wasn’t because i was passionate about it. i love science generally, and had good grades, so i joined something that would make my parents proud. however, the workload was poison, and since i wasn’t passionate about medicine specifically, it just felt like i was suffering for nothing. i had one too many panics attacks one day and though, why am i tolerating this? so i left. i’m as interested in chemical engineering as i was in medicine, i’m just generally not that passionate about stuff, except if it’s a short amount of time. but i like science, so, i’m doing very well in engineering. to answer your question, simply put, i like the major, and i can easily roll once i’m not pushed to a corner. it’s not scary at all, it’s actually rather refreshing. just live your major, deal with it like you would anything else in your life. i’m the sort that just accepts their fate pretty fast college is hard whether you like the thing or not anyway so, working hard and determination is all you need, as well as a reasonable amount of sleep yeesh i was an insomniac when i was in medicine.
hope you find an answer in there… somewhere… it really just depends on the person.

@oliver lol you’re as optimistic as i remember dude, a breath of fresh air i’m a pessimist personally but, i appretiate it! thanks~

It takes a lot of guts to do what you did. Inspiring, really.

Good to keep moving forward, even if the direction changes. Life is about moving forward, and finding friends along the way. Hopefully some day you will find that one person you do care about what they think.

At New Years I always sit and think about the last year, and wonder where I will be the next New Year. Sometimes things stay pretty static, sometimes so many changes I never expected, It is a quiet time for me, so I have the cruise control on, windows open, and music playing. Sun is shining.

@maha I think I get the vibe of what you’re saying. I’ve gotten more selfish and a little stupid at times the past year but it feels healthy, in a way, even if it wouldn’t appear that way to someone else. Instead of being overly innocent and wanting to please everyone so much. I’ve become much more picky when making close friends or romantic partners and although I’ve found myself confused and angry and feeling alone because of it, I think I have a better perspective now and am growing. With change there is growth, and I’m trying to make the best with it, as lost as I am. We’re all equals and in this together