I hate myself…when will I be happy? I’ve been feeling so gloomy and down for a long time…I don’t know what to do with myself. Everyday I’ve been trying to do one positive thing in my life, but I feel like so small. This world is a big place full of new environments, new people to meet, new relationships, new discoveries…yet I hate myself. I don’t love myself at all.Nowhere near close to pretty, slim, intelligent, or even having a good charismatic personaliy. Life isn’t a fairy tale drama at all, it has it’s ups and downs. I get that whole part. I feel like everyone needs a motivation in their life to keep going…or at least a passion…or something that triggers them to be their very best/happy. Thing is I don’t know what my passion is. I know for one thing is that I want to help fam out. But its weighing down on me. I’m always gloomy, no motivation, no bf ever, no best friend ever, no one I can vent to in reality, no one to be there for me when I’m crying alone. That’s all I’ll ever be throughout my life is alone I guess.