Please don’t do anything bad to yourself @spectrolite7, things may seem hard but they will change for the better, do your best to focus on getting yourself to a good place emotionally and mentally, everything will be OK, hold your head up high and know you will beat all your struggles, remember you are a fighter and survivor who will overcome, don’t let anything stand in your way, show the world how truly brilliant you are, believe in yourself and keep going forward, there is always light at the end of the tunnel, feel free to inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone (hugs)

@spectrolite7 You do with what you have, college is good, prestigious or not, work at the pace you can and try to not compare yourself to abstract expectations, sounds like you are in a place where you have what you need to go on studying and be able to do something different eventually, but using alcohol regularly to curb your how you feel doesn’t work well in the long term, so be cautious.

//ive had it with the pain and frustration// @spectrolite7
~ Why do the feeling ’pain’ and ’frustration’ exist in the first place? Might you be aware of that?