Maybe you could try going to counselling again @jawn, I know how you feel, I’m shy too and I don’t really go out very much at all, do your best to try to meet new people if you can, find a new hobby or activity to keep you going, I’m sure you will be able to confidently and openly express yourself, be positive and kind to yourself, hopefully you will find the right job and career that will make you feel fulfilled, look forward with positivity and don’t give up, you can do it, I’m always here if you need to chat or vent, message me anytime, my inbox is always open, stay strong, you are never alone (hugs)