I would try talking to a counsellor or therapist @pepperman, you are a lovely person who deserves all the best in life, I don’t want to see you hurt or in pain, try to stay positive and focus on all the good things that will happen to you, I’m sure things will be OK, hold your head up high, keep going and don’t give up, you can do it, I’m always here if you need to vent or chat, message me anytime, my inbox is always open, stay strong, you are never alone (hugs)

Remember online tests aren’t fully accurate and the only way to truly get diagnosed is to go to a psychiatrist or psychologist. You are an awesome person and it’s ok to be different. As someone with Bipolar disorder I know what it is like to lash out at people suddenly, I am always open to talk and will try to help however I can. We will try to not disappoint you and I am sure you will find someone that truly keeps your interest. All the best!