Please don’t think like that @buenowaffle, you are worth it and you do matter, I want to see you truly happy, see yourself in a fabulous way, remember you are lovely and fantastic, don’t let bad thoughts bring you down, you will win all your battles and come out so much stronger, keep being the amazing individual that you know you can be, believe in yourself and keep going forward, there is always hope, message me anytime, my inbox is always open, you will never be alone (hugs)
im not sure. right now im feeling stable, and its difficult for me to remember what was going on while i was crying and hating myself and stuff.. i feel neutral about myself right now so i dont have much bad things to tell you
For the past 8 months, the majority of your posts have been commenting on how awful, unhappy and worthless you feel that you are, and have stated multiple times that you want to die.
Your troubles don’t have to be active and immediately present to be relevant or valid. What are these things that are keeping you so beaten-down?
well thats not technically self-harm.. also i left 10 months ago or something. dont know why i came back. was probably lonely
thats the thing, i dont really have.. that. its complicated. thats why i say i have depression, cause theres no reason for my sadness. its just there. like a monster inside my head. or like a cloud that surrounds me whenever it wants to. i dont know..
If you are not subject to abuse, yet you still struggle with depression, you may have a hormonal or chemical imbalance in your brain. Have you seen your doctor recently? Increased serotonin production can instigate and exacerbate depression symptoms.
kinda feels like youre invalidating my feelings a little now but okay.
we dont have our own doctors where i live. we dont go to hospitals often in my family, and also we dont get called in for ccheck-ups or whatever. if i were to go to the hospital id have no idea what i was doing because i have no doctor to contact. also my mom works at the hospital sometimes so i wont risk it
That’s not invalidating your emotions at all. Your depressive emotions could very well be caused by a neurological chemical imbalance. That’s not dismissive. Your emotions are entirely valid.
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Please don’t think like that @buenowaffle, you are worth it and you do matter, I want to see you truly happy, see yourself in a fabulous way, remember you are lovely and fantastic, don’t let bad thoughts bring you down, you will win all your battles and come out so much stronger, keep being the amazing individual that you know you can be, believe in yourself and keep going forward, there is always hope, message me anytime, my inbox is always open, you will never be alone
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@buenowaffle
You need to open up and talk with someone. Your reported self-harm and suicidal ideation is increasing and that is not healthy for you.
@blackholehead
its not increasing, im just writing more here
@buenowaffle
That being the case, if your actual rate of self-harm is greater than what you’ve mentioned here on BlahTherapy, then it is already severe.
What is giving you the idea that your life is worthless?
@blackholehead
what kind of sself-harm are you talking about?
im not sure. right now im feeling stable, and its difficult for me to remember what was going on while i was crying and hating myself and stuff.. i feel neutral about myself right now so i dont have much bad things to tell you
@buenowaffle
For the past 8 months, the majority of your posts have been commenting on how awful, unhappy and worthless you feel that you are, and have stated multiple times that you want to die.
Your troubles don’t have to be active and immediately present to be relevant or valid. What are these things that are keeping you so beaten-down?
well thats not technically self-harm..
also i left 10 months ago or something. dont know why i came back. was probably lonely
thats the thing, i dont really have.. that. its complicated. thats why i say i have depression, cause theres no reason for my sadness. its just there. like a monster inside my head. or like a cloud that surrounds me whenever it wants to. i dont know..
@blackholehead
oh damn, appearently i only left 6 months ago? im not sure im here in periods
If you are not subject to abuse, yet you still struggle with depression, you may have a hormonal or chemical imbalance in your brain. Have you seen your doctor recently? Increased serotonin production can instigate and exacerbate depression symptoms.
@buenowaffle
@blackholehead
kinda feels like youre invalidating my feelings a little now but okay.
we dont have our own doctors where i live. we dont go to hospitals often in my family, and also we dont get called in for ccheck-ups or whatever. if i were to go to the hospital id have no idea what i was doing because i have no doctor to contact. also my mom works at the hospital sometimes so i wont risk it
@buenowaffle
That’s not invalidating your emotions at all. Your depressive emotions could very well be caused by a neurological chemical imbalance. That’s not dismissive. Your emotions are entirely valid.