because i know its not going to last i mean, i know we arent soul mates, so idk if its worth lying to my parents and throwing it away, my parents and i have a great relationship idk if i want to risk that you know?

Why would you be lying to your parents?

They are completely against boys and dating. if i did anything with him i would have to keep it a secret and lie to them about where i was going and who i was with…just going behind their backs i guess