feeling down sometimes then other times can handle what lies before me. Having a problem letting go of my life through a divorce. We both wanted it but it is hard letting go when only the good memories seem to be on the surface. We are remaining good friends and our choice is accepted by our friends. We still get to keep them in our lives. I am 50. We have had a relationship spanning 24 years so it is hard to not have a memory of my life without him in it.