For anyone who cares to read about a pathetic lovestory:

I’m in love with this girl, she’s evrything i love in one person. All our intrests are the same, tatoos, music, anime, both of us smoke weed etc… I’m addicted to her and this feeling is unbearable, i feel like my heart is going to explode. The feeling of not being able to satisfy your craving is horrible and it’s destroying me! Whats destroying me more is the fact that i’m pretty sure she doesn’t love me back, she’s a playgirl, I’m not the only one she wants intimate hugs with, I’m not the only one she makes time for. But can a playgirl fall in love aswell? Maybe she did fall in love with me, how do i find out?

I havent been eating well i think i’m becoming anorexic, i ate one really small sandwich and a small pot of yoghurt today, when i tried to eat some lasagna to regain some strength my stomach kept cursing at me as i proceeded to dump lasagna there. My throat and stomach became allies and my throat refused to do its job. I think my selfimage is too low to be able to handle love, i think im not naive enough to love. The more you know the sadder you get, that’s why the world tries so damn hard to keep people stupid, and make them think they’re smart and know evrything. Am i becoming anorexic? Don’t know, maybe i just don’t eat because i’m in love and i’m overdramatizing evrything, maybe she loves me back and i shouldn’t feel so down, maybe she needs some more time but nothing changes, i still sit here, being destroyed internally, not having any strength to do anything, not wanting to eat. Is this what having a broken heart is like? People can die of broken hearts, maybe i’m dying, i’m pretty sure i’m dying on the inside. All i want is my drug, my woman.

PS: sorry if i made any mistakes, english is my fourth language afterall s: