I have, she asked me what I would do if she did kill herself. I said, ”whatever you would want me to.” she said, ”Join me.” I will do anything for her, so i said ”Okay, if you kill yourself, ill kill myself.” She does know that I love her, I tell her every day, at least 5 times a day, but she doesn’t care. She loves me, but she loves pain as well. The only pain I feel in life is when I see her in pain. I could get stabbed, won’t flinch. I see her crying, you would have thought I just got shot with a shotgun. I need help to stop this. The other day, she overdosed on all of her pills before going to sleep, hoping she wouldn’t wake up in the morning. And I know she won’t go to a therapist, so I don’t know what to do. I’m scared I’m going to come home to her hanging from a rope, or with a bloody knife in her hand, and I will break down, and I will fulfill my promise to her. I love her more than anything, she is all I have, i went through the same thing once. I cut myself, I attempted suicide, but I don’t want her to take the same path I did.

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