Magikarp Meg said 9 years, 7 months ago:

I have been going through so much stress with school that I relapsed into depression.
The razor seems so calling and like ribbons to sew up my problems, but I resist because of the guilt that follows from breaking the long, long break away.
Panic attacks happen 2 to 3 times, daily.
Grades dropping, heart racing, up at night pacing.
Friends not able to help.
Medications and therapists don’t either.
I’m not sure what to do.
Wanting to wrap my arms around someone, and the only one I want now is with someone. So I respect that while in pain. Perhaps just trying to attach on to someone again, but I always bring them down with me.
I don’t know what to do.
I want to scream, but I don’t have the power to.