blemish said 9 years, 4 months ago:

drugs and liquor these days has become part of the routine; get up, wait till parents leave, smoke some stuff ,drink half a pint or more, goto school, between breaks go out for a cigarette, at lunch drink some more and/or smoke more stuff, go home, drink, smoke more.
i know its not normal,but currently its one of my only escapes.
my group of friends that dont do any of that stuff, tell me i need to get help,but i feel like the”help” wouldn’t actually be help, as well as i myself, am not looking to change,yet, a small part of me feels like it wants help,i don’t really know what to listen to now