I can’t feel anything. I haven’t really felt much for two or three years. I also am having a really hard time remembering things. Usually when I can’t feel anything i cut myself just so I can feel for a little while. I’m trying super super hard not to do that anymore but I’m running out of reasons why not to cut. I looked into what this is called and I came across dissociation. Does anyone know what else this could be?
I know that is not a popular answer but consider getting professional help. Also don't go to fast with self-diagnosis. Although you might have some symptoms of the dissociative disorder, it does not mean that's actually your case and only a profesionnal can be completely sure about that. However, whether it is or not, it seems to me that you suffer from some kind of trauma (once again, let's be careful with words, I have no way of assuring this so I might be wrong) and there again, professional help would probably help you a lot. Of course this community will be here to listen to you anytime but, if you do suffer from some kind of trauma, the great majority of the people who are here can't walk you through it.
Hey thereBefore this period of unfeeling, did anything happen that really upset you?
You could have had an experience that forced your mind into a sort of self-defense against those feelings or memories.Also, is there anything (not physical) that you feel causes you to feel again, e.g. music?
As far as I am concerned this numbness could be associated with depression. It is likely that this is a result of some kind of trauma you might have faced; however only a professional coul say for sure. But cutting is NOT the answer, it will just make things even worse. Resist doing that, and try to focus on something else. Try to bring a change in your life; do something new- anything! For example, go out with friends, make a meal, do anything you enjoy. Exercise often, it helps your mind and body. :) Keep yourself busy with these things, so that you don't fall back into the numbness.
I too used to cut to feel something and its really not the answer. I also recommend getting help but also find something to do that not only makes you feel something, but makes you feel happy. Like playing an instrument, listening to music, drawing or painting. All of these things are what help me, maybe they can help you too. Good luck with your recovery. I know you can do it!