I don’t know what to do at this point.. I have been trying to get better and be happier.. but I seem to not be trying hard enough. I have been trying to get help but I seem to think i don’t need any help.. I know I need help but my mind just doesn’t want to believe it. Every time someone tries to help me I end up pushing them away. I just need advice as to what to do. I think of what it would be like not to be here anymore.. I just don’t know what to do anymore. Every single day I wake up thinking of death, and it scares the living hell out of me.. Ugh, i’m just broken beyond repair… Why am i even still here..?
You're not broken beyond repairs, you're lost and we all know how it feels.What I did when I felt that way was this: I rationalized my problems.
I made a list of things I thought were not going well in my life. No matter how deep or shallow these things are. Then, I tried to understand why I thought they were not going well (sometimes it's easy, sometimes you realize you were worrying about them for the wrong reason). Then I tried to find as many solutions as possible for each one of them, I wrote down even the crazyest ones. Then I picked the more rational ones (not the easiest) and I put them into practice as to improve things in my life.The good news is: you don't have to solve all your problems at once. Once you know what you have to fi, you can take one, understand it, fix it, and then take another one. It takes some times but it works very well.Email me if you want to talk or need help.
You're still here because you are a beautiful person, whether you think so or not. You still have a purpose in life that you haven't completed yet, so don't give up. I know from personal experience that life gets better if you let it. If you volunteer in your community or join a few clubs, life is pretty fun. What I do to distract myself from my depression is always keeping myself busy. I'm not an athletic person, so I'll play my piano and write stories and have my friends around. Never be by yourself. Just.... Find a hobby that you love and never stop doing it.
I felt this way too. It was hard to believe something will ever change, but it did. And you know, I was so thankful that I didn't end my life back then. Because there were many beautiful things ahead of me that I would have never experienced, if I ended my life. You just need to start believing that there can be a solution. Even if you dont know where it is or how to find it, even if you dont want or cannot work towards it, if everything seems too hard, try just ONE thing - try to believe there can be a way to a better life. You dont have to try too hard. Sometimes good things and help comes from nowhere, from the least expected places. Miracles. They exist. Just believe.
The world would be a very sad place without you here. Your life is so precious and beautiful to give up on. There would be so many people that would miss you and even us here would miss you terribly. You are young like myself, so we have to live our lives the best we can and always tell ourselves that it's going to be okay no matter how hard throws curve balls at us. You are far from broken and you have a purpose here in this life. I was where you are at now. All I wanted was to die, but after so many attempts of suicide, I realized, I need to be here for some reason that I was put on this earth. Never give up sweetie, it'll get better. Here's my life motto.
Hakuna Matata. No worries and you'll be okay. I promise
You're still here because as long as you wake up every morning, you have a chance to make a difference in your life and transform into the person you've always wanted to become. Don't ever say you are broken without repair. You may be chipped, but you have not shattered. And even if you were shattered, you could put the pieces back together <3 You sound like you have a lot of anxiety about life. I think you could benefit from relaxing a little bit, taking one day at a time, and having a little more faith in yourself.
According to your profile, you are 17. You have barely experienced life yet. You still have your entire future ahead of you. The real word isn't like high school. Eventually you will move on from nasty people, or an awful home life, or whatever is going on. If you cant get better on your own you should consider getting help. Killing yourself is so selfish, its a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Stay Strong <3