I’m a tough person on the outside, especially in the outside world. I once sprained my ankle really badly and walked on it all day without even crying at school until I got home and saw it was swollen badly and couldn’t walk on it.
So I keep having the urge to cry when I’m in bed, and sometimes I do. I tell myself that crying is a sign of weakness, especially since most girls cry all the time. I want to find a way where I don’t end up crying.
There is one song that helps me sometimes, it’s called “Baby Don’t Cry” by Big Bang. It’s half in English and half in Korean, so most people won’t understand it. But when Deasung says, “Baby don’t cry, baby don’t cry, baby don’t cry,” I can’t help but begin crying, and I cry hard. It doesn’t stop for sometimes hours.
But after listening to that song on repeat for a while, when he says those three words, it helps calm me down.
I don’t wanna be stuck crying myself to sleep at night forever. I’m completely heartbroken and I wish I could tell someone about it, but my friends will think I’m being dramatic, which I probably am.
Any help?