I am a guy and this past November I did some experimenting with other guys. Okay one guy. I got the nerve to tell him how I felt and all of my other questions regarding guys is directed at him directly. I was close friends with him and still am to this very day. I finally got the nerve to tell him how I felt about him and I hugged him all the time like a relationship based hug and it was like a boyfriend girlfriend type hug but like everytime I would go to do it I would get scared and nervous to go in and do it and nobody judged us but at the same time he is straight. There was an occasion where I was crying and he grabbed me around my stomach and gave me a hugeee bear hug where he dragged me, danced with me in his arms even though I wouldn’t do it too and I liked it but I just could never do it to him. I attempted to kiss him but I wouldn’t tell go for it also. Like am I shy or something?