Very Closed Person

Opening up to a stranger can be easier, it just depends from one person to another. When you open up to a stranger, that person doesn't know you at all so you might feel more secure to share personal things. I can understand how difficult it can be to open up. It's important to not bottle it all up and if talking to a stranger helps you, then it's good to keep doing that. Maybe it takes some time for you to trust people in person and to open up to them bit by bit. Take your time to feel comfortable.

Problem is i have trust issues. I rarely trust people or gain trust from people. And i always have only 1-3 people i actually trust. Because to gain my trust is no simple task

When it comes to trust, I'm the exact same as you. I can understand that it's very difficult to trust people and it's okay if you only feel comfortable with trusting 1-3 people. One is already enough to share things with, as long as you don't bottle it all up. Trusting people isn't easy to do. You can try to share something little with a few to 'test the water' and see if it's 'safe' to trust them. Take it one step at a time.

You see, I do not share my feelings and true thoughts with others too. Maybe, afterall, it's not about trust? Maybe it's about your uniqueness? You may be seeing strange gazes when you speak up about yourself and/or the reaction of your partner annoys you. Like he or she doesn't really understand you and still acts as if he or she does... Could it be something like that? That, by some reasons, you feel like an outsider? Like you do not belong to this world? If it's so, I'd recommend you not to feel guilty about opening up only to strangers. There will be far less people IRL who'd actually truly understand you. Act with care. World is cruel. Open up only step by step to people. One detail after another.. If you see that the person seems to understand you and accepts you as you are (you will notice that), go on. This is the PERSON. Look for these. And don't feel bad if majority doesn't accept and/or understand you. It's normal.

Yeah Hina...thats kinda how i feel....

Maybe you are afraid to be judged by the people you know. Be confident in yourself and you don't need to always prove that you are right; I mean share your feelings with who really care about you and trust them more =)

Thanx Omar, will try this, even though its hard