I hate going out alone in public. I really do. I hate attention, but I love it?? I don’t know how to explain it. But, really, I just need a friend with me, then everything is fine. I cry when I’m alone in a crowd. But if I have someone, I’m okay. If I have a friend, I can be goofy and loud. Usually, that someone is my best friend. But she’s gone off to college and I’m alone again. I hate being at home, I want to go out, but I can’t do it alone. I don’t know how to make friends. I get really upset when people tell me to go out and do things, be less shy and put myself out there. That’s hard. Really, it is. In my school, in my city, I’m this social outcast. I was lucky to have met my best friend. I don’t know what to do. Right now, Tumblr is my only friend. What should I do?
This might be worth seeking professional help, even medication for. Everyone has a bit of trouble with people in some way or another. But crying because you're alone in a group is a big deal. (Something is wrong, but you're not wrong. Does that make sense? Like how you love your cat, but not when it pukes in your shoe?)
I do agree with the other guys, small groups or places is a good step. Maybe pick a burger joint or a book store and go there every week. If you're really nervous, bring a book or something for you to do.