Hi. Let me just start by saying that I wanted to do something different last year. By that I mean I am a sophomore and decided to join a sport. I’m not really the sporty kind of person, but I decided why not just give it a shot. So I joined the girls under 14 football (soccer) team. I thought it would be fun cuz I knew some people there and we knew each other for quite a long time and are somewhat legitimate friends. Plus my best friend decided to join as well, so I thought it would be really fun. It’s a hard sport, I know, but I knew that if I worked hard enough, I’d actually be as good as my friends in the football team. But as time went by, most of the newbies left including my own best friend, so I got really lonely there. As with my friends, I thought I knew them, but they turned out to be jerks who just ignored me cuz I sucked. It was a pain and it really lowered my self-esteem to the point where I stopped talking, skipped a lot of practices, and during every practice, my mind would just cloud up and I’d get super anxious and lose my confidence. I thought maybe it was because no one believes in me, including myself. And it really worsened my depression. What’s worse is that a freshman started acting like a total bitch to me, in fact she’s a bitch in general. But everyone loves her cuz she’s a skillful player and better than me. It really hurt me. But I know what you might be thinking “Why don’t you just quit?”…. Bcuz I don’t want to be like the rest and even though it hurts so much to me every time I step in that field, but I knew that if I try hard enough, with a bit of luck and a lot of practice, I’ll get better somehow. And one day, they’ll finally respect me. Don’t those great people always say “Never give up”? Plus I actually have an interest for the game. But most of the time I think that maybe it’s not meant for me. Maybe I should just stop. But if I do, they’ll look down on me more. I don’t really know what to do anymore. I just hope everything will get better for me. Please help. And thanks for reading.