Hum... that is little info to start wife...
Okay, let's start with "ugly"...
Do you have physical problems? Your body and/or face is misformed from birth or disease? For I've seen and visited people that are considered "ugly" by society due to these reasons, and they should and will receive surgery. If you do suffer from these illness, then yes, you should have restorative plastic surgeries, and I'm sure you could get them making your case recognized. If you don't, then you're not ugly, just lack confidence.Now,about self confidence: It's hard, I know. Hatred feed on itself, and we hate ourselves, and we hate how we hate ourselves. Making an unendying circle of pain and sorrow. We look for complex answers, when the truth is actually so simple: unhappiness make us ugly to ourselves. Confidence grows with self-knowledge, age and wisdom. Pain make us mature faster, but blinds us for our qualities. You think you know yourself, but you don't. You only judge yourself. Ill-judge, I daresay. There are many ways of improving self-confidence: therapy, good friends, this website surely helps. Please, learn more about yourself, I'm sure your self-confidence will grow.Hate life? Well, welcome to the team. Life was meant to be cheerished, not easy. Life doesn't get any easier than it is now, it's us that need to get tougher. Life has plenty of hateful aspects, but has SO MUCH GOOD STUFF TOO! There's music, food, movies, comedy, rollercoasters, videogames, sex, friends, love, laughs. You can shed tears of joy! This is all possible! Maybe not now for you, but hey, my life made hell looks nice, and everything is much better now. Took it's damn time, for sure, but things get better. One problem at a time...
Come to this site more often, join the groups, vent at the chat. You'd be very welcomed.Listen to my advice...