I’ve been single for over 90 days. I haven’t let go but every fibre of my being is telling me to stop loving my Ex, to let her go, to forget her to move on, but I haven’t. I can’t. I’m falling apart. I absolutely hate her, I can’t stand what she’s become and what she’s done in recent months, but I still beg for her when I go to sleep, beg for her to wake up with me and hold me. I’m too attached to what she was and the 5 1/2 years of true love I had with her. I’m so f!cked up in the heart. And all I’m doing is stewing in my bedroom every day cause that all I can ever do. I have no friends. No one wants to be interested in me.
I beg for her love to come back, but I hate her so much! I want to hurt her,..but I’d break down and cry if I ever saw her again. I have no idea how to handle this.