Hi, first of all i’m spanish so i’ll try to explain myself well.
I dont know if I need this, or if im sad or if i need help, but i wanted to write it all down and just let others judge it, i dont trust anyone close to me that much to tell them this.
Since a few years ago, im 17 now, i have a lot of ups and downs, but I dont know where all the downs come from, i mean, i just cry in my bed some nights, i obviously have reasons sometimes, but they are the common teen problems.
I just hate how this world is, i think all people are sick (mind) including me, i hate how the world works, meaning, we only live to work everyday and die, happiness is very difficult to reach, or impossible. Its impossible to be happy and dont be upset about anything, are we really here to born, suffer and die? I dont know what to do with my life.
1 year ago, I met someone who thinks the same as me, when we meet, we talk about how shitty the world is, and how we both want to live together in the woods, far from the city and the people. I really hope that we do, but I know thats not how its going to be, im just gonna keep studying and suffering for the rest of my life.